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Beatrice
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I don't know why but I just felt like posting this.... maybe it will inspire someone, who knows.
I just came to the realization that no matter what I do, the insecurities (or at least the source of them) will always be there. The depression will always be there, even if in the background of my mind. The anxiety will always be there in some form. I can sit around and whine about it, cry, be depressed and miserable. I often get down on myself and feel like there's no hope. But what good does that do? Yeah, there is a lot that I don't like about myself and that makes me miserable. But wishing it all away won't do a damn thing except leave me steeping in misery, wasting my life away. As Rizzo from Grease says, "...take cold showers every day and throw my life away on a dream that won't come true." Okay, sounds corny maybe and not exactly the same subject matter, but still, it's true regardless.
So basically, what I'm saying is, I'm done. I'm done with the old me. Sure, I'll still have anxiety, depression, insecurities, misery. But I'll deal with it differently. I don't have any other choice. I have to make the best and keep fighting.
It feels good just to get it out there and make a statement to others. I'm changing. I'm going to be a new me. I'm going to do my best and live as much as I can, because this is all I have.
My attitude may be different a few days from now, but whatever. Any hope or step in a new direction, any chance of change, is welcome. It can only help...
I just came to the realization that no matter what I do, the insecurities (or at least the source of them) will always be there. The depression will always be there, even if in the background of my mind. The anxiety will always be there in some form. I can sit around and whine about it, cry, be depressed and miserable. I often get down on myself and feel like there's no hope. But what good does that do? Yeah, there is a lot that I don't like about myself and that makes me miserable. But wishing it all away won't do a damn thing except leave me steeping in misery, wasting my life away. As Rizzo from Grease says, "...take cold showers every day and throw my life away on a dream that won't come true." Okay, sounds corny maybe and not exactly the same subject matter, but still, it's true regardless.
So basically, what I'm saying is, I'm done. I'm done with the old me. Sure, I'll still have anxiety, depression, insecurities, misery. But I'll deal with it differently. I don't have any other choice. I have to make the best and keep fighting.
It feels good just to get it out there and make a statement to others. I'm changing. I'm going to be a new me. I'm going to do my best and live as much as I can, because this is all I have.
My attitude may be different a few days from now, but whatever. Any hope or step in a new direction, any chance of change, is welcome. It can only help...
