Meditation is totally underrated, but there's a reason for that. Normally it takes years to learn how to do it correctly. 10-15 years is not unusual. I'm sure the learning process still has a lot of benefits because you're learning to clear your mind, and that can only be a good thing.
There's a way around that though. About 13 years ago someone figured out that you can stimulate the brain to generate the same low frequency waves that you see in experienced meditators when they're in a meditative state. It's a system of CDs that you listen to with headphones. I've been using it for about 3 years and it's the best thing I ever did.
One of it's benefits is making you less susceptible to addiction. I chewed tobacco for a long time and after a few months of this meditation, it was easy to give up. But that's only a small part of it. Ultimately, it gives you awareness. One type of awareness is how you go about creating results in your life.
Indirectly, awareness does a lot of things. You might thing it would be painful somethimes. Temporarily, it can be, but it's always to your advantage in the long run. You'll be more resilient, you won't get discouraged as easily, you won't get as stressed, you'll gain more control over your mind, you're outlook on life will improve, you won't be as anxious, in social situations, you'll begin to see what's really there and that's the key to being social - really "being there." Whether you socialize or not, you'll eventually feel more connected to people. It's up to you how fast you progress, but one way or another, this will take you a long way.
It's not a quick fix, but you'll probably notice small things early on. Some people experience significant shifts early on. It depends on how deep your issues are. Literally, how deep they are within your subconscious. The process goes for about 10 years. Almost 200,000 people have done it, but still few people have heard of it and it's a shame. I try to tell anyone who might be interested. Most people think they've got it together but none of them realize just how unconscious their lives are and how little choice they really have in their lives because of it.
SA people especially have a lot to gain from this. All of the fear and the defense mechanisms we've built up over the years - these are all unconscious, which is the only reason it has control over us. You probably know - that's the way the unconscious works. It only has power over you because you're not aware of it.
Stick with this and it will definately change your life. You can read about it at
http://www.centerpointe.com
If you doubt what I'm saying, go ahead and challenge me on it. They have an affiliate program, which means I could give you a URL that when you click on it, I get credit for sending you there, so if you buy a CD, I get a commission on the sale. I never use it though because I don't want people to think I'm only telling them about it so I can get some benefit from it. If you knew about something like this, you'd be telling people about it yourself. But if you have doubts, go ahead and challenge me on it, but don't ignore it. Otherwise, it's easy to see that the price you pay for this is nothing compared to what it buys you. You can get a free demo CD sent to you and it's a very reputable company so they'll honor their money back guarantee. If any of you saw the TV special "The Secret", the founder Bill Harris was one of the speakers on that show.