Dalaryius
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Sorry to ask this, 'cos I do see this has been asked many times on this forum but I really have to know.
So like all my life I've felt jah different from everyone. I was never a Germ-a-phobe or anything like that, I've more-so had obsessions. I.E. if I'm talking to someone in person I constantly feel funny. Like am I saying the right thing. Did I say that word right, I'd also constantly be obsessed with what their thinking about. Also, I get really anxious. I remember as a child I use to go to daycare and my mother would be real late. EVERYTIME THOUGH, I'd use to think she was swallowed by a tornado or some other severe weather. I'd cry uncontrollably, it was very ridiculous.
Now, I'm 17 and things have gotten worst. I have constant thoughts about social situations. I feel so WIERD, and I need CONSTANT reassurance(more on that later) I've also developed this thing with my hands where I squeeze together and visualize accomplishing things and I shake 'em. I also am afraid to hold scissors and Knives because I am afraid I'll dig through the hole in my penis.(Very nasty, I know) Also I'm OBSESSED with sex. Not normal teenage hormonal level either. If I'm close to anyone of any sex I feel Like I'm going to kiss em' (I'm not Gay or Bi either) Sorry for so much info.
Now, I have been legally diagnosed with ADD, and I was prescribed adderall. This made my condition worse though. I made a sexuall advance toward my mothers 44 year old roommate. I wasn't attracted to her though and she doesn't walk around the house wearing no clothes and what not. So they dropped my dosage down to 15 mmg of adderrall(took 20 during incident). Also, all my thoughts contradict each other, its always a continuous argument with myself about something stupid.
I have developed compulsions recently. One thing I do is check the front door EVERDAY. I know I locked it and I have to say to myself, look you locked it go on with your day. That doesn't really help. When I see the school bus coming I still do it. This goes on for atleast 5-10 minutes. Also, I repeat words and stuff for no reason and its not like i feel anxious if I don't It's just and urge. I can't stop it sometimes
Last paragraph I Promise(sorry) well at 1st I didn't think I had OCD because I didn't do the cleaning and stuff. But now when I read all the symptoms I'm pretty convinced I do. But sometimes I have these thoughts like I'm just doing it because I read the stuff, when Its not that and now as I'm typing this its all circling a again.
I know you all are not doctors but please tell me if it sounds like I do. There is way much more but its to much to type. Thanks alot. Sorry for the long read
-Dalaryius
So like all my life I've felt jah different from everyone. I was never a Germ-a-phobe or anything like that, I've more-so had obsessions. I.E. if I'm talking to someone in person I constantly feel funny. Like am I saying the right thing. Did I say that word right, I'd also constantly be obsessed with what their thinking about. Also, I get really anxious. I remember as a child I use to go to daycare and my mother would be real late. EVERYTIME THOUGH, I'd use to think she was swallowed by a tornado or some other severe weather. I'd cry uncontrollably, it was very ridiculous.
Now, I'm 17 and things have gotten worst. I have constant thoughts about social situations. I feel so WIERD, and I need CONSTANT reassurance(more on that later) I've also developed this thing with my hands where I squeeze together and visualize accomplishing things and I shake 'em. I also am afraid to hold scissors and Knives because I am afraid I'll dig through the hole in my penis.(Very nasty, I know) Also I'm OBSESSED with sex. Not normal teenage hormonal level either. If I'm close to anyone of any sex I feel Like I'm going to kiss em' (I'm not Gay or Bi either) Sorry for so much info.
Now, I have been legally diagnosed with ADD, and I was prescribed adderall. This made my condition worse though. I made a sexuall advance toward my mothers 44 year old roommate. I wasn't attracted to her though and she doesn't walk around the house wearing no clothes and what not. So they dropped my dosage down to 15 mmg of adderrall(took 20 during incident). Also, all my thoughts contradict each other, its always a continuous argument with myself about something stupid.
I have developed compulsions recently. One thing I do is check the front door EVERDAY. I know I locked it and I have to say to myself, look you locked it go on with your day. That doesn't really help. When I see the school bus coming I still do it. This goes on for atleast 5-10 minutes. Also, I repeat words and stuff for no reason and its not like i feel anxious if I don't It's just and urge. I can't stop it sometimes
Last paragraph I Promise(sorry) well at 1st I didn't think I had OCD because I didn't do the cleaning and stuff. But now when I read all the symptoms I'm pretty convinced I do. But sometimes I have these thoughts like I'm just doing it because I read the stuff, when Its not that and now as I'm typing this its all circling a again.
I know you all are not doctors but please tell me if it sounds like I do. There is way much more but its to much to type. Thanks alot. Sorry for the long read
-Dalaryius
