SOMEONE PLEASE HELP .. DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO

[nikixcore]

My name is Niki and I've had anxiety since I was about 15 or 16 .. and a little bit of OCD .. I feel like the OCD is really bad now. I was on Paxil for a while and a few months ago decided to stop taking it which I'm sure was a stupid idea but I don't even know if that was helping the OCD. I don't do rituals or anything like that, I just have reoccuring disturbing thoughts about hurting myself. I don't want to die and I'm actually really scared of dying and anyone who knows me would tell you the same.. so am I crazy? Why is this happening? I'm scared of knives and pretty much anything else you could hurt yourself with. I need to know I'm not the only one who feels this way. I feel like I'm losing my mind and pushing people away when I need them the most and I don't know how to make them understand. I'm 21 now and I've been okay for a while but now I feel like everything is tumbling down again and I'm really frightened. I've tried to get a hold of so many psychiatrists with the insurance I have but not a lot of luck yet. The anxiety makes it harder for me to calm down. I also hate being alone and have issues falling and staying asleep. Someone please help me..

Niki

 

[LoveBug]

Hi,

I just joined this forum today as well because OCD was getting too much to handle. I've grown up knowing I had something wrong with me, but it wasn't until this past October I finally got help. I live in Canada so our health coverage covers the cost of the doctor, however, I am a student at University (obviously in debt ) and I am able to go to the student councilors at school at no cost. I believe it is covered in the students costs you pay with tuition. I don't know if this helps, but I hope I did. If you need to talk to someone, google helplines, or contact a center for mental health. In Canada, we have CAMH (Centre for Addictions and Mental Health) and CMHA (Canadian Mental Health Association). Both of these, I believe, have a number you can call for support etc.

Good luck!

 

[Musicocd]

Hi,

Have you tried going to your GP? They can be the first step to getting help as they can link you to psychiatrists etc.

Musicocd

 

[chiii]

hi

hey i thought i would reply to this because i am too going through something similar. i picture hurting my self and i picture bad things happening. i cant really concentrate well and feel like no matter what its always in the back of my mind. i too have the worst time sleeping. i sometimes feel like im not even sleeping at all, just laying there. a couple years ago i went through something like this, but about a month and a half later i got better. now this time its taking longer because it has been almost 2 months. if you need someone to talk to, we can exchange emails or something. it might help to talk to someone.