First of all hi everyone I'm new here!!
I was wondering if anybody else can relate to these experiences.
When I'm by myself and I'm walking down the street when somebody starts walking my direction, my brain starts to over-think everything. For example, "should I make eye contact, or look away?" "Should I say hi, or just walk passed" "Am I walking comfortably *focuses on how I'm walking* Oh crap why can't I walk" Etc etc. While these thoughts are flooding through, I happen to forget how to breathe as well, so the end result is me walking past them really awkwardly, sweating and avoiding eye contact. It feels extremely uncomfortable.
I just started University, and when i attend my group tutorials I feel like all eyes are on me when I walk in (not in a vain way, but as if my every move is been assessed). I'll sit there in class sweating, avoiding all eye contact with everyone, sometimes even having to close my eyes because the intensity of it all gets too much otherwise. If I have something to say, I'll start to talk then when people's eyes turn towards me it's almost like all the air has been forced out of my body. All I can get out is a mumbled squeak, not being able to express what I wanted.
Note: I want to make friends at university but because of my SA I think I come across as really snobby when in reality I'm just too scared to talk with people.
Anyway I dunno if those made sense but thanks for reading!
I was wondering if anybody else can relate to these experiences.
When I'm by myself and I'm walking down the street when somebody starts walking my direction, my brain starts to over-think everything. For example, "should I make eye contact, or look away?" "Should I say hi, or just walk passed" "Am I walking comfortably *focuses on how I'm walking* Oh crap why can't I walk" Etc etc. While these thoughts are flooding through, I happen to forget how to breathe as well, so the end result is me walking past them really awkwardly, sweating and avoiding eye contact. It feels extremely uncomfortable.
I just started University, and when i attend my group tutorials I feel like all eyes are on me when I walk in (not in a vain way, but as if my every move is been assessed). I'll sit there in class sweating, avoiding all eye contact with everyone, sometimes even having to close my eyes because the intensity of it all gets too much otherwise. If I have something to say, I'll start to talk then when people's eyes turn towards me it's almost like all the air has been forced out of my body. All I can get out is a mumbled squeak, not being able to express what I wanted.
Note: I want to make friends at university but because of my SA I think I come across as really snobby when in reality I'm just too scared to talk with people.
Anyway I dunno if those made sense but thanks for reading!
