when i'm around children it disappears (well, once i am used to them) its like i am the me that i actually AM.
luckily for me i work with kids for a living lol but i think it just adds to colleagues perceptions of me as either weird or rude, seeing as they see me being all loud and outgoing (and sometimes shouty!) with the kids, then around them i clam up totally. oh well, c'est la vie.
I am also ok with my immidiate family, which i think adds to their perception that there is nothing wrong wit me apart from a little shyness.
I went to a bone thugs n harmony concert 11 years ago (my first and only concert lol) when i was 19. i went with a uni pal and her lil sis who was as big a fanatic as i was. i still felt very self conscious, but i just basically copied what everyone else was doing and cncentrated on the fact that no one gave a fuck about me because they were there for the show. i was even one of the folks tryng to drag one of the group off the stage into the crowd lol (the dude in my avator!) plus i got hugs and autographs outside, but i was too "shy" to actually say anything. they probably just thought i was start struck lol
so my anxiety didn't disappear in that situation, i just copied the actions of everyone else and tried to ignor it.
i guess its testamemt to just how much i love that group because i would not put myself through that ordeal again (unless it was to see them again!)
they did have another show which i got tickets to, but it got cancelled. i have to say, a big part of me was relieved, even though i was disappointed. this time around i would have had to gone with my sister seeing as i have no friends :0(