sugarcake
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I have been shy forever and I can never be completely happy because of it. I watch people around me and I feel like I could be awesome friends with them if I could just get over this shyness, but it seems like I can't! And it's so frustrating. Up until I was eight years old I was quite outgoing actually but then at school everyone was mean because of my race and then we had some difficult foster kids in our house that caused problems and all in all it resulted in me getting profoundly shy. It's so bad, guys have given up on me because I was so shy, but I didn't want to be, I hated it! People are friendly to me a lot, but I'm always too shy to return it. I want to them to know how much I appreciate them, but it seems like I can't. I just graduated from high school and I went to a better school for junior high and high school, but I feel like I'm wasting my life when this is a time you should be having fun. But I rarely talk to people on the phone, I don't have enemies, but I don't really have friends either. It's bad. Around my family I have no problem carrying on a conversation, joking around, etc. But I can't seem to bring that into a new situation. Then there was this guy that LOVED, but now it's too late because I could never be myself. I just can't seem to forget and get over the things that things that happened so long ago and learn to trust people.