Shame.

[Confuseddd]

My eyes are blue, my blood is red,i am human
Thats what they said, yeah like i could think
im just like every body else. My
image staring back at me like another conscious
mind berating me.

Im such an... anamoly
something must be...wrong with me
please god come find me
and i swear im not gonna crack
I've felt this for what feels like eternity
and please tell me this wont last eternally

Today i felt for too long
the images in my mind kept me calm
finally i figured out a way i could run
it took me so long but i must have won..
Turning on my shower i thought, this is so cliche
almost made me laugh, first time in awhile but it
picked a good day.

Looking back on this i was smiling, the thought of
it ending manifesting inside of me.... And i said
God, speak now or forever hold your peace. In that instant
a question touched on my mind, like a breeze, here and then gone.
To this day that question is inside of me im not sure what it is
but searching for the answer...
is driving me.

 

[EscapeArtist]

I like this a lot. I very much feel where you are coming from. It captures a very hard-to-pinpoint mood, of being shameful, as the title says, but driven. Searching through that internal fire of self hatred, discovering the little cracks of light and release.

 

[Confuseddd]

I like this a lot. I very much feel where you are coming from. It captures a very hard-to-pinpoint mood, of being shameful, as the title says, but driven. Searching through that internal fire of self hatred, discovering the little cracks of light and release.

Yes thank you, not many understand how it feels.