CaptainArgh
Active member
Hi there!
Now that I have done the "safe" thing, trolled the site for a few days, worked up the courage to post in a few threads where I can appear clinical, detached and calmy define a problem in the usual way I feel I can actually introduce myself
Well, I'm mid 30's, qualified Civil Engineer, and am a textbook case of AvPD. When I read Martin Kantor's bible it really resounded with me, it described every single aspect of my life. I havent had any formal therapy, I have made an appointment a few times, but I cant seem to get myself into an office to sit down and discuss it with them.
Being honest I am at the end of my tether with regards to this whole thing. I need to reach out, understand that there are others like me so I can build up a reservoir of courage and actually tackle this thing. I find I cant enjoy too much anymore due to the massive pre-occupation I have with AvPD, all the thoughts in all the threads and what I "should" and "shouldnt" be doing, whats wrong, how to fix it, why I should be comfortable, how I should drive etc etc etc. I tried reaching out to my family, but they are as avoidant as I am, and still in the mad-crazy-in-denial-stage.
I was a bright kid, bullied excessively, didnt develop normal communication skills. Lets see, diagnosed with major depression (still persistant) and agorophobia (I got back out of the house for a coupla years, but I can feel the anxiety worsening again) and am the poster child for AvPD.
Sorry guys, I know long posts are almost impossible to read, but I guess I'm trying to open up.
So yeah, Hi
Now that I have done the "safe" thing, trolled the site for a few days, worked up the courage to post in a few threads where I can appear clinical, detached and calmy define a problem in the usual way I feel I can actually introduce myself
Well, I'm mid 30's, qualified Civil Engineer, and am a textbook case of AvPD. When I read Martin Kantor's bible it really resounded with me, it described every single aspect of my life. I havent had any formal therapy, I have made an appointment a few times, but I cant seem to get myself into an office to sit down and discuss it with them.
Being honest I am at the end of my tether with regards to this whole thing. I need to reach out, understand that there are others like me so I can build up a reservoir of courage and actually tackle this thing. I find I cant enjoy too much anymore due to the massive pre-occupation I have with AvPD, all the thoughts in all the threads and what I "should" and "shouldnt" be doing, whats wrong, how to fix it, why I should be comfortable, how I should drive etc etc etc. I tried reaching out to my family, but they are as avoidant as I am, and still in the mad-crazy-in-denial-stage.
I was a bright kid, bullied excessively, didnt develop normal communication skills. Lets see, diagnosed with major depression (still persistant) and agorophobia (I got back out of the house for a coupla years, but I can feel the anxiety worsening again) and am the poster child for AvPD.
Sorry guys, I know long posts are almost impossible to read, but I guess I'm trying to open up.
So yeah, Hi
