School year

[Tab]

yet again I'm writing about school. I had my first 'full' day today and I couldn't stand it. I hate everything about it. I don't think I can possibly make it. I never thought I'd say it but I started thinking of dropping out. But if I do what could I possibly do? I've made it 2 years so I got 2 more, I thought they'd be the same as the first but they are just getting worse. I hate how life is going right now. Its really not easy at all and everyone around me seems to be enjoying their lives. If I keep feeling this way I'm going to have some sort of break down. I think I've reached a permanent road block in my life and for the first time I'm out of ideas. :evil: :? :x 8O

FYI I'm not in high school I'm in university

 

[chris87]

Don't drop out, even if it is difficult. You'll regret it later, especially when it prevents you from getting a job. You've made it through two years...don't quit now!

 

[littl3misstrange]

Believe me, I know where you're coming from.
When I started my freshman year of high school, I started to get panic attacks in the crowded hallways & eventually it got so bad that I couldn't go to school at all. I'd have this huge fight with my dad every morning, because he just didn't understand.
Eventually, I got home schooled for the second half of the year. The next year, my counselors & my dad made me go back & it was hell. I ate lunch everyday sitting in the stall of a deserted bathroom, where most of the time, I just cried silently to myself instead of actually eating.

The rest of high school didn't improve that much, it was still hell, but I survived somehow. Though I missed so many days, I had to take summer school & didn't graduate with my class. I still got through it though, miraculously.
I can't really give you any advice to make it easier. But, believe it or not, it will eventually get at least a tiny bit better.
Personally, I think it would be a mistake to drop out, but that's up to you. School's not for everyone. But, the reason I never dropped out (& believe me, i thought about it a lot!) was #1 my dad would kill me, & #2, I knew I'd never become what I want to be in life if I didn't get an education. I knew I'd end up regretting it later, & I didn't want that. My life is already hard enough.

Just try to get through it as best you can. That's all I can really say. Just know that there are plenty of other people on here who know exactly what you're going through.

You can PM me anytime about anything if you ever need any advice/support.

 

[sabbath92002]

Oops, thought you were talking about high school.

College was a bitch too. One semester I'd get all A's and B's and the next I'd have to withdraw from all classes because of depression.

My advice is stick with it. Don't listen to the crap in your head. Learn to connect with your "observer self". Your "thinking self" is always judging, always saying reality is wrong, things should be different. But your "observer self" doesn't judge, it just notices what's going on.

 

[ventrilothree]

He's talking about college. Anyways i'm in the same boat as you too (year 3) and i've never considered about dropping out before, but it's so tempting. I'm compelled to not be a failure but this is very difficult. Every year my major gets many times more difficult and they tempt you to drop out... I even found out for my last lab i have to do a 20 minute presentation on the lab to the entire class (even though there's only about 15 people in physics). I also have to do a presentation to the lab supervisor every 2 weeks on my lab. It's very nerve wrecking and the material is already quite difficult... I wish i could just die ;(

 

[Smokeringz]

highschool is a fucking gauntlet, itlll make or brake you.

 

[Tab]

Thanks for the feed back, but still I don't feel any better

 

[littl3misstrange]

I wish I could make it better. I really do. I've been exactly where you are now, so I know how unbearably painful it can be at times.