Scared

[Eliza]

So, hello. I'm new here and I don't know why I'm doing this. I just feel so incredibly alone and I can't handle it right now. At the moment I'm going through a depressive episode, so I apologize if I get whiny or something.
I have social anxiety, or at least I think I do. I suffer from frequent blushing durning things like eating in don't of others, or just talking to friends. I shake and stumble on my words durning presentations out when I have to talk to more than 2 people, and during arguments I blush and feel like crying. Even writing this full me with anxiety and I just want to cry at the right of people seeing this. I just want to close out of the screen and forget I ever wrote anything.
I'm scared. I'm scared to talk in fear I might start blushing, I'm scared to say something to someone in fear that they will brush off my problems as being silly or just going through a rough patch. I'm scared to write this. I'm so alone and so very scared. I don't know what to do anymore.

 

[clarissa87]

Well you aren't alone. Many of us experience similar feeliNgs. I for one also have the frequent blushing to deal With. It is hard but not impossible to work through. Take some time and read some other posts in the blushing forum. I have learned a lot here and it is very helpful reading that you are not alone. Take a moment to relax and know that the folks here are very supportive and helpful.

 

[andsorry]

I use to be so scared about writing posts on here. I thought my counselor or someone I knew would find out about the real me. Then I said "you know what, I don't care." Just keep in mind that you are anonymous on here.

When I had presentations in college I had to walk around before i gave my speech because I was so anxious. I would forget and fumble my words a lot. It was painful watching a room full of people staring at me embarrassing myself. The worst part was that I had to watch the video and critic myself.