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Hello there!
This is my Journal. You can follow my story, fighting SA.
My thoughts and view on life, what my day is like, such like a diary.
My dreams on becoming a singer, book writer, and you can read my poems.
You are about to get to know, me, my family and friends.
My love for music, art, poetry, photography, manga and psychology.
I will share my positivity, pain, hope, love, and will keep fighting.
Enjoy!!!
Monday 8 NOV. 2010
Days like these, what can I say?, Feeling different, than all the others around in this society of being outgoing. Everyone has a job, goes to college and people all seem so popular, and they seem PERFECT.
Why must everyone be so perfect?, But It's all a lie. Everyone shares pain, and even anxiety. But we SA folks, all deal with a huge amount of anxiety.
We really need to feel good around people, and find the way to make it!!
We really want to live our lifes, but we need to find a way.
I'm writing and researching what I should do to reach this.
I feel really uncomfortable around people and need to feel OKAY with that.
I will keep writing and discovering about this.
Today is just a day like every other day, just me browsing Social Phobia World, cleaning the house together with mom, reading a book, listening to music (the radio is on
) But still I miss the oppurtunity , of going to study of workin'. I really want to do that again. And I'm trying to become the secure woman I want to be. But still, I cannot prove myself that i'm good enough, called a low self esteem. But I'm doing so many good things right now. Tomorrow I have an appointment with a Job/school coach, She wants to talk to me about studying and finding a job. I'm really looking forward to it, but i'm freaking nervous. lol. Wednesday I will view an appartment and I may be living there in the future. Professionals do work there, they will help me with the progress of living on my own, they also support people with psychological issues. So that's a great thing!
3 years ago I developed Social Anxiety, I never knew it had a name, I thought it was just my own stupid problem, I was different I thought. My personality should be the main problem, I thought.
But I never Realised bullying and trauma could cause this for me.
I've been through so many things, and that has made me the person I did become.
I really want to become strong, confident , i am willing to be more than a Super Shy Girl.
I hope I can ever say that i'm OK, because I want to be OK, I want to know it's all Fine.
I will keep you guys updated how it goes tomorrow.. I will write it on here, and you can follow my progress on becoming more outgoing, what i really want to reach. And I will also post some Poem's, and more suprises
I hope you liked my first Journal!!
Much Love,
Saskia (Flowergirlie)
This is my Journal. You can follow my story, fighting SA.
My thoughts and view on life, what my day is like, such like a diary.
My dreams on becoming a singer, book writer, and you can read my poems.
You are about to get to know, me, my family and friends.
My love for music, art, poetry, photography, manga and psychology.
I will share my positivity, pain, hope, love, and will keep fighting.
Enjoy!!!
Monday 8 NOV. 2010
Days like these, what can I say?, Feeling different, than all the others around in this society of being outgoing. Everyone has a job, goes to college and people all seem so popular, and they seem PERFECT.
Why must everyone be so perfect?, But It's all a lie. Everyone shares pain, and even anxiety. But we SA folks, all deal with a huge amount of anxiety.
We really need to feel good around people, and find the way to make it!!
We really want to live our lifes, but we need to find a way.
I'm writing and researching what I should do to reach this.
I feel really uncomfortable around people and need to feel OKAY with that.
I will keep writing and discovering about this.
Today is just a day like every other day, just me browsing Social Phobia World, cleaning the house together with mom, reading a book, listening to music (the radio is on
) But still I miss the oppurtunity , of going to study of workin'. I really want to do that again. And I'm trying to become the secure woman I want to be. But still, I cannot prove myself that i'm good enough, called a low self esteem. But I'm doing so many good things right now. Tomorrow I have an appointment with a Job/school coach, She wants to talk to me about studying and finding a job. I'm really looking forward to it, but i'm freaking nervous. lol. Wednesday I will view an appartment and I may be living there in the future. Professionals do work there, they will help me with the progress of living on my own, they also support people with psychological issues. So that's a great thing!3 years ago I developed Social Anxiety, I never knew it had a name, I thought it was just my own stupid problem, I was different I thought. My personality should be the main problem, I thought.
But I never Realised bullying and trauma could cause this for me.
I've been through so many things, and that has made me the person I did become.
I really want to become strong, confident , i am willing to be more than a Super Shy Girl.
I hope I can ever say that i'm OK, because I want to be OK, I want to know it's all Fine.
I will keep you guys updated how it goes tomorrow.. I will write it on here, and you can follow my progress on becoming more outgoing, what i really want to reach. And I will also post some Poem's, and more suprises
I hope you liked my first Journal!!
Much Love,
Saskia (Flowergirlie
)
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