I've been struggling without having a normal sleep cycle for the past two weeks, and getting up past 3pm in the afternoon on occasions. Call it depression, weakness from dealing with SA half of my life, or what-have-you. I just don't want to face the day sometimes.
I have difficulty FALLING asleep. My mind simply will not rest, and I have 101 things going through my brain at once. I think of past failures, past hurts, regrets, and even past relationships that have no affect on my life today. It just doesn't make any sense! I keep re-living painful moments in my mind, and I don't want to; it's not like I make myself to do it. They just start to flow in, and I begin to cry.
Wow. How pathetic. lol.