So.. me and my ex have decided for a while now to just remain friends for now. But we both know that we don't see each other as nothing less than what we had. It's a long distance relationship so I had to man up and decide for the both of us last time I was there. I really love this girl but the fact of the matter is that right now even if I decided to move in which is more than plausible, I will not be able to support her financially given my current career stature. I don't want her to be the bread winner. But I want to be with her but I just can't tell her what I feel cause I don't want to put any burden on her. So I took my chances with friendship so that she is free to do what she wants while I work on myself in the background and prepare for the move which I am trying to expedite as much as I can. But it's tough. We still do the same routine. Stay on skype when we sleep and remain in constant contact.
I tried to slowly drift away into non-communication so she can have her space as hard as it is to accept. She is the type of girl who's not too eager to say what she feels so she just gets angry. Last Sunday when we were on skype I tried to force her to let go at least a bit so she can start getting used to me not being there. I told her that I will not be on skype for a while nor call her during the day. Her voice started faltering and you can hear on her voice that she is panicing. I had to keep her from crying cause there's nothing worse than that.
So now... I stopped doing my plan to contact her less and we're back where we were before...
I keep telling her we're friends so she gets used to it. But I do it with discretion. I still don't tell her my plans to move. It's really tough when you know she's waiting for you and you don't want her to...
I tried to slowly drift away into non-communication so she can have her space as hard as it is to accept. She is the type of girl who's not too eager to say what she feels so she just gets angry. Last Sunday when we were on skype I tried to force her to let go at least a bit so she can start getting used to me not being there. I told her that I will not be on skype for a while nor call her during the day. Her voice started faltering and you can hear on her voice that she is panicing. I had to keep her from crying cause there's nothing worse than that.
So now... I stopped doing my plan to contact her less and we're back where we were before...
I keep telling her we're friends so she gets used to it. But I do it with discretion. I still don't tell her my plans to move. It's really tough when you know she's waiting for you and you don't want her to...