I get how you feel but most of you are pretty young, in your early 20s often.
just a few step in a direction and life can become so muc more exciting!
a few step can make you feel somewhat different, and that feeling
leads you to do a few step you never did and the new feelings keep changing
and adding etc..
what im trying to say is sometimes because of a few simple steps
which sparked a different kind of emotion in you, it slowly turns
into a snowball going down the mountain, and while it is small
and slower at first, it can quickly pick up speed and get bigger and bigger.
This is the power of momentum.
All of this to say some very nice stuff may be ahead.
I've seen several SA people who were all or nothing.
Basically they were not living at all, yet when they were
able to go about their lives, everything turned upside down
and they have a blast.
P.S. I'm about done with a text I wrote about what helped me most
get rid of my social anxiety. I'll let you guys know about it in the main social anxiety forum.