Rage!

[WishingICould]

So the past week I've been very irritable. Anything and everything seems to p*ss me off. Well, while in my room, I became upset about something that I heard and SLAMMED my laptop shut. When I turned it back on it made a scratching noise. I thought for sure that I broke it. After 20 minutes, it started fine again. I am very lucky. My rage almost cost me a lot of money. (Not the first time..I once broke my signal changer off the steering wheel by pressing too hard down, which was also done out of anger).

Usually when I'm this angry I just punch myself, or sometimes a wall. I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown. At any rate, I need to cool it. I cannot afford to break anything!

Anyone else feeling rage?

I feel angry most of the time. Mainly because i feel like i was born to have a miserable, pathetic existence. I feel like everybody else is happy and living their life and i'm just existing. I don't have any patience for people, especially at work. A lot of the people there are just plain idiots. They all go out getting drunk and look at me like i'm some freak.

I have thrown a few things in my time. I don't think i've ever actually broken anything but that was probably just luck. My mum sometimes tells me to "cheer up" and that she wished she had my problems. In other words, she thinks i have no problems or worries and that i have no reason to be upset or angry. I feel like i can't tell her any of my personal problems so, to be fair to her, i guess she doesn't think i have any problems.

 

[ImNotMyIllness]

I feel angry most of the time. Mainly because i feel like i was born to have a miserable, pathetic existence. I feel like everybody else is happy and living their life and i'm just existing. I don't have any patience for people, especially at work. A lot of the people there are just plain idiots. They all go out getting drunk and look at me like i'm some freak.

I have thrown a few things in my time. I don't think i've ever actually broken anything but that was probably just luck.

I can relate! My patience level can be pretty thin at times. And I agree with you on a lot of people being idiots. I wish I wasn't so irritable sometimes.

I too feel like I'm just existing. As if I was created to feel humiliated and like crap all the time. I'm tired of it.

I'm trying to do something about the existing part. I'm pushing forward. I'm not going to cower in my corner any longer.

 

[WishingICould]

I can relate! My patience level can be pretty thin at times. And I agree with you on a lot of people being idiots. I wish I wasn't so irritable sometimes.

I too feel like I'm just existing. As if I was created to feel humiliated and like crap all the time. I'm tired of it.

I'm trying to do something about the existing part. I'm pushing forward. I'm not going to cower in my corner any longer.

Good for you. I guess i have managed to achieve a few things. I had a hellish childhood but i got through it some how. I've managed to hold down a full time job for 5 years and i've recently passed my driving test.

 

[hexagon_sun]

So the past week I've been very irritable. Anything and everything seems to p*ss me off. Well, while in my room, I became upset about something that I heard and SLAMMED my laptop shut. When I turned it back on it made a scratching noise. I thought for sure that I broke it. After 20 minutes, it started fine again. I am very lucky. My rage almost cost me a lot of money. (Not the first time..I once broke my signal changer off the steering wheel by pressing too hard down, which was also done out of anger).

Usually when I'm this angry I just punch myself, or sometimes a wall. I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown. At any rate, I need to cool it. I cannot afford to break anything!

Anyone else feeling rage?

I too feel like acting out at times and I've been known to punch walls and dumpsters. In this mad world we live in, sometimes the only way to keep your sanity is to lash-out at something...anything. But the truth is, the true source of your frustration and the frustration of everyone here and that suffers with these issues is... "the matrix." We all have had glimpses of this alternate reality, but denial kicks-in and doesn't allow us to process what is actually going on. Some people, unfortunately, have had more than just a glimpse... We are farm animals, lab rats to the "elite." They are trying to find ways of making humans docile and controllable from birth, without relying on pharmaceuticals. Just like with any experiment there are unexpected results i.e. people becoming motivationaly handicapped aka "depressed", "anxious,." The frustrating part is that not everyone is part of the experiment. So you have this social disparity. It's ok to punch inanimate objects, but don't do anything that will land you in legal trouble. That's what they want. They want to pick-out those who are not responding to the conditioning. Stay vigilant, be brave and stay safe.

 

[Marnology]

Definitely. I notice it more when I haven't gotten a good night's rest. I could stub my toe and a new world war would not be enough. I get very very upset at facebook as well. I mean, the people... my "friends". Everything seems so mundane and unimportant - Go sports! Maxed out at 250lbs today, bro! OMG, I can't wait to drink this weekend! blah blah blah. If I can, I avoid these things that make me full of rage. Sleep is key for me.

 

[FallenFeathers]

Anyone else feeling rage?

I've struggled with anger issues for a long long time. I had an aggressive and physical Farther and either through genetics or learned behavior I think I picked some of that up off him. I am a passionate person too when it comes to most things.

I can still get angry, I can still have a really short patience with people and situations and those are things I can't seem to control. What I can do though is choose how much I react or give in to those frustrations/feelings.

I refuse to let anger control me anymore, It's hard at times but I do it. I seem to get to a point where I just want to be destructive, but now instead of loosing impulse control, I do whatever it takes to remove me from that situation, if I can't, I really just stop for a few seconds and focus on my breathing.

For me that's all it takes, though in reality it is so much harder than it sounds, because every fiber in my body wants me to give in. But that's all it takes for me now... and the rage rains away without me breaking something I'm just going to have to replace, or saying or doing something out of character in the heat of the moment.

Ever since grabbing control back, I have found I an all round healthier attitude towards situations which would of set me off in the past, that really is much more rewarding than the fleeting feeling of satisfaction you get when you just give into it. If I'm ever blessed with kids, I don't want them to be scared of me like I was of my Dad simply because I never learned to control myself.