radical/stupid plans

[Lorraine Manca]

So the nature of social anxiety/phobia is you feel inhibited. is that the right spelling? Do you ever make radical plans or plan radical changes to counter that problem? I have!
One of them is to go to best university that will let me crawl in, get a phD with student loans, drag the process out as long as possible. Then after getting out and not finding any college willing to hire someone who can't even hold eye contact with another person, declare bankruptcy. Im not sure what id do after that.
That's the most recent one. When I was 18, I got the bright idea to marry my best friend. I dont even remember why I thought this was a good idea even though it wasnt terribly long ago. I got through the first set of signatures before backing down. That was like dodging a bullet. He's put me in a ton of bad situations over the years, running out of gas in the middle of no where, bouncing checks, stuff like that. It bothers me that i don't know why i almost did it.

what have your radical and/or stupid plans been? do you think about making radical changes too? please tell me

 

[PunkRotten]

I dont ever make plans like these, they are the worse kind. I think its always best to take your time and be practical.

 

[doesit]

yeah sometimes i have those irrational plans,but right away you know that they wont end up as you would like ,but the nature of people with SA is that they tend to live in their own little world,and dream of unreal things and ask stupid questions,like why theres no world peace and why everybody cant get along and if something goes wrong or its just a bad day start crying and cursing all the people in this world because they dont give a f*** about them

 

[doesit]

i think i mixed up word radical to irradical :/ to hell my english.

 

[Lorraine Manca]

no zeroday, i definately dont have a phD! thats just the latest silly plan thats popped in my head. the second one is the much earlier silly plan that didnt happen either. backed out in time. im not recommending people do or plan stupid things, punkrotten, it just happens

 

[PunkRotten]

I believe if you always approach life in a conservative way, you've only see conservative gains. Sometimes you just have to roll the dice.

Its not what I meant, but what I meant was stupid plans where theres no thought.

 

[timidhorse]

I've had radical plans like going to college or marrying a close guy friend, but the most radical was pursing a career and that I'd have to have social interaction with people on a daily basis.
Of course it doesn't always turn out the way I want it to, but now I am learning to work on the little things first that I'm scared to do (i.e. talk on the phone, go shopping alone).