Today I just walked out because I couldn't stand my thoughts anymore about harming children. Now I am once again an unemployed loser, but at least I get a $700 social security check. I feel like I have no control over my thoughts and I just want to stay in my room until I die.
quit my job today...
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FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
You did the right thing.
If you're having thoughts like that, I think it's responsible on your part to resign.
If you're having thoughts like that, I think it's responsible on your part to resign.
there was a time when i had a job and the boss told me my instructions for the next day! but scotland were playing against holland on that day!
so i just told her straight "im not coming into work the morn! your having a fkn laugh"
but we got beat and i got sacked!
fk it! who cares!
so i just told her straight "im not coming into work the morn! your having a fkn laugh"
but we got beat and i got sacked!
fk it! who cares!
i have no idea why quitting a job (or getting the sack in my case) would make you think your a paedofile!!!!!!!!!!!
please explain
IDK94657
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Remember, it's part of the OCD. As Barry1979 said, OCD can warp your mind. It will make you think without a doubt that you want to harm others in one form or another. However, deep down you feel that you'd rather die than hurt one of those children, right?
yes. Funny thing is I do the compulsive checking by looking at magazines and pictures on the internet (not pornography) to see if I think I am still attracted to them, and I find the pictures to not be sexually appealing at all. When I am under stress, however, like at work today everything seems to be going by at a faster pace, and I don't have time for the checking. Somehow, I am affraid if I am not careful enough, in a split second I could harm a child walking by me.
IDK94657
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As long as it calms your OCD down, it's better than nothing.
One way of proving to yourself that it's the OCD is by looking at your day. You said it was stressful, so your OCD was worse and all those feelings were worse, right? I don't blame you for quitting if your that worried, but try a therapist or medicine first.When your at work you can also try to focus on other things, or even come up with little stories all day. Do you like cars? Maybe think about what you'd like to do with yours, or one you'd like to own. Sometimes it passes time for me or helps stave off OCD, so maybe you could try that.
Update: I am feeling a little bit better lately. I know my thoughts are unwanted. I think i'm going to start doing some exposure therapy to get me filling better. I have been isolating in the house the last 24 hours. Tomorrow I suppose I will go a few places. To the store and possibly to the movies. I am tired of this anxiety shit. I need to just put my middlefingers up in the air to what other people think and take care of some business. Perhaps I can get my old job back if I appologize.
IDK94657
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once ocd triggers, do not react anything your mind says! just think that later it would just fadeway, you are just being anxious!.... And hey you're not alone.. be an OCD survivor!! ok?!!! Go somewhere else like shopping, or music etc.. Don't let OCD ruins everything.. Think your bestfriend, He/She is excited about i dunno(everything).. so be like him/her.. You should be excited about everything you like too... ok!? don't let OCD controls you life... I know you can do it!...
Newestnewbie
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I know how it feels to want to run away from your problems. Leaving your job seemed like the best solution to avoid your unwanted thoughts. But, have you tried any kind of therapy to help you confront your thoughts so you no longer feel like running? It might help.