xkiss_me_nowx
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i sometimes think.. that if i died right now, i wouldnt care. and thats for real. like i sometimes think, god i wish i could just die right now it would be so much easier.
i think i want to kill myself but then i think of the people i would be leaving behind, but it would be just so much easier if i died because i wouldnt have to put up with all this depression, worrying, anxiety anymore.
but i love certain people too much to do anything about it. i tried killing myself once, but i got took to hospital for a stomach pump and they made me see some person to talk about my problems but i told them i was totally fine and that i was just depressed, so that was it.
but i just ALWAYS feel down deep inside, and i always wish that i could just die, and i wouldnt actually care.
but i always hide how i feel, i usually hide my feelings with 'happyness' everyone always thinks im some happy girl but im not at all. so ehh.
idk, is my depression pretty bad??
i think to get to the point where you just wouldnt care anymore if you died, and wished you would just get run over or something, and the only thing stoppin you killin yourself if the people you love, is pretty low :[.
idk what to do to stop myself feelings like this. i really dont.
and the thing is, my mother, she is a 'medium' [she gives readings to people, shes very spiritual, very accurate] she told me one time 'your a very sad soul arent you?' out of the blue, and i was pretty shocked, i always hide my feelings so she couldnt of known.. but people tell me ive so many things to look forward too.. im only 16, maybe i do. but i just really cant see it.
im gonna get crap GCSE results in a few months because i suck at school, and i prolly wont get into college, i wont make new friends, i will find it hard to find a job because im very insecure, and i wont have good qualifications, i really have nothin to look forward to, if i could end it right now, i really REALLY would..
i just dont know what to do anymore please someone reply. im just not sure i can handle this much longer..
i think i want to kill myself but then i think of the people i would be leaving behind, but it would be just so much easier if i died because i wouldnt have to put up with all this depression, worrying, anxiety anymore.
but i love certain people too much to do anything about it. i tried killing myself once, but i got took to hospital for a stomach pump and they made me see some person to talk about my problems but i told them i was totally fine and that i was just depressed, so that was it.
but i just ALWAYS feel down deep inside, and i always wish that i could just die, and i wouldnt actually care.
but i always hide how i feel, i usually hide my feelings with 'happyness' everyone always thinks im some happy girl but im not at all. so ehh.
idk, is my depression pretty bad??
i think to get to the point where you just wouldnt care anymore if you died, and wished you would just get run over or something, and the only thing stoppin you killin yourself if the people you love, is pretty low :[.
idk what to do to stop myself feelings like this. i really dont.
and the thing is, my mother, she is a 'medium' [she gives readings to people, shes very spiritual, very accurate] she told me one time 'your a very sad soul arent you?' out of the blue, and i was pretty shocked, i always hide my feelings so she couldnt of known.. but people tell me ive so many things to look forward too.. im only 16, maybe i do. but i just really cant see it.
im gonna get crap GCSE results in a few months because i suck at school, and i prolly wont get into college, i wont make new friends, i will find it hard to find a job because im very insecure, and i wont have good qualifications, i really have nothin to look forward to, if i could end it right now, i really REALLY would..
i just dont know what to do anymore please someone reply. im just not sure i can handle this much longer..