I have had periods of highs and lows as well. Sometimes I get so "high" that I feel like I can do anything, usually I end up wanting to take a trip to another state or country. Or I will buy something outrageous, or I'll sign up for school or look at new cars or something. But that feeling usually fades before I get into any big trouble haha.
I have heard that the periods of mania usually include really erratic behavior, sometimes dangerous and without any kind of thought. People also only sleep a couple hours a night and have tons of energy.
Does that sound like you?
Not really. There are some things, like I was a little ambitious with my Christmas gifts this year, trying to do a little more than I could with them. And recently I did spend some money I usually wouldn't on some things, including something I didn't even mean to buy but was a bit too impulsive to realize till after the fact. Sleep lately has been normal, 4 or 5 months ago I did go about 6 days on 8 hours of sleep and didn't feel very tired throughout that week, I just didn't need the sleep.
That's all stretching quite a bit though, I'm probably just experiencing the normal highs and lows we all go through, even if they seem more noticeable to me lately for some reason. My lows tend to be unbearable too, I'm probably exaggerating my highs because of how they feel relative to my bouts of depression. I'll stop trying to define it and try to keep the good times rolling 🙂
I despise flies.
There is no need for them.
Other little creatures do the same job and they don't fly around spreading the bacteria everywhere.
Flies are disgusting and reduntant.
I despise flies.
There is no need for them.
Other little creatures do the same job and they don't fly around spreading the bacteria everywhere.
Flies are disgusting and reduntant.
I agree. I actually fantasized about become a pest controller once. I get a grim sense of satisfaction from destroying them. Malaria spreading Mosquito's are in the same boat.
Today was a weird day. Yesterday I went for a regular appointment, but there a couple of odd things, such as a different bus driver. I assumed the regular driver was on holidays. I was waiting to speak to the receptionist when I was ushered in by someone who does not speak English. It was not the usual receptionist either. When I was leaving someone said something that I could not make sense out of. At 15:30 today, I realized that today was Thursday, not Friday. That means that yesterday was Wednesday, not Thursday. So I showed up for the appointment on the wrong day, but it still went ahead. Since the appointment is for 11:30, I did not show up at the actual correct time because is was not until after that time that I realized. I presume they realized that I had been there on Wednesday, and that was why I did not arrive.
I was finally able to contact our school psychologist. Even if it was via e-mail, I was still really nervous. So now I think I'll already be talking to her next week, which makes me even more nervous. I know I have to do it, and should've done it a while ago, but it scares the heck out of me... We'll see how it goes.
Co-workers are going out soon and asked me to join them but i said no. On one side i'm glad i said no but i also feel scared of what they will think of me now. Oh well:rolleyes:
Once again, because of my complete inability to say no, I got myself into a huge mess. I know, its typicaly a teen problem and may seem silly but tomorrow, more or less 20 people(some of them I barely know) are coming to my apartment and I am scared as hell. I am scared sth will wrong, they wont like it. Its a drinking party but the apartment is barely furnished and I fear it will be a disaster.
Why is it hard for me to refuse anything? I hate this. I hate all the stress this is giving me.
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