JWH
Well-known member
Whether it's something I've said, the way I've dressed or on a day where I took some initiative I just get this overwhelming feeling of shame.
For example, recently while taking the dog for a walk, someone said something to me. I couldn't hear what he'd said though, so I had to ask him to repeat it. I still didn't understand what was said and just kept walking on ahead. I felt like I'd done something so rude afterwards but at the time it just seemed natural that I fake a smile and move on. A week or two later, and I still worry about walking in that direction for fear of bumping into the person!
Another thing that bothers me is my immaturity and overenthusiasm in the past. Just cleaning up my computer I'm reminded of tiny little things that I hated about my past self. I know others have just accepted that it was a "Jane" thing, but I can't seem to accept myself or my past.
Is there anyone else who feels like this?
For example, recently while taking the dog for a walk, someone said something to me. I couldn't hear what he'd said though, so I had to ask him to repeat it. I still didn't understand what was said and just kept walking on ahead. I felt like I'd done something so rude afterwards but at the time it just seemed natural that I fake a smile and move on. A week or two later, and I still worry about walking in that direction for fear of bumping into the person!
Another thing that bothers me is my immaturity and overenthusiasm in the past. Just cleaning up my computer I'm reminded of tiny little things that I hated about my past self. I know others have just accepted that it was a "Jane" thing, but I can't seem to accept myself or my past.
Is there anyone else who feels like this?