paul
Well-known member
hello everybody -- you may have noticed that I haven't been posting much lately (not that you should notice ). partly this has been due to computer troubles, but mainly, recently I've been very stressed out.
school is very difficult this year -- I am a perfectionist and get lots and lots of homework. it sometimes seems like everything I do revolves around school. I get incredibly nervous if I forget to bring my notebook home and there is a quiz the next day -- even if I already studied. it's becoming a bit compulsive. :?
it just seems like it's a cycle, every week, school starts and things just get worse and worse. I want to tell somebody about my SA but at this age, I'm quite certain that nobody would understand it let alone accept it. I want to tell my parents -- but my mom especially is always complaining how I am so "hard to please" and I "don't like anything." that's not true, I just have a hard time enjoying social school events because I am so nervous all the time. when somebody asks why I don't join something or do a sport, I can't just tell them "it's because of my SA," when people ask me that, I just get extremely nervous -- some people even say I look scared all the time, something which I thought I hid pretty well a couple weeks ago. :x I just feel like everything I do -- with the exception of maybe eating, drinking, and sleeping -- revolves around what will cause me the least anxiety. :|
sorry for being so self-pitying, I just don't feel like I'm making any progress, no matter how hard I try. never give up hope though
so hopefully (not realistically) school will calm down a bit and I'll be able to post more here. I'll never leave this site though -- EVER! -- there are some very, very great people here.
-paul
school is very difficult this year -- I am a perfectionist and get lots and lots of homework. it sometimes seems like everything I do revolves around school. I get incredibly nervous if I forget to bring my notebook home and there is a quiz the next day -- even if I already studied. it's becoming a bit compulsive. :?
it just seems like it's a cycle, every week, school starts and things just get worse and worse. I want to tell somebody about my SA but at this age, I'm quite certain that nobody would understand it let alone accept it. I want to tell my parents -- but my mom especially is always complaining how I am so "hard to please" and I "don't like anything." that's not true, I just have a hard time enjoying social school events because I am so nervous all the time. when somebody asks why I don't join something or do a sport, I can't just tell them "it's because of my SA," when people ask me that, I just get extremely nervous -- some people even say I look scared all the time, something which I thought I hid pretty well a couple weeks ago. :x I just feel like everything I do -- with the exception of maybe eating, drinking, and sleeping -- revolves around what will cause me the least anxiety. :|
sorry for being so self-pitying, I just don't feel like I'm making any progress, no matter how hard I try. never give up hope though
so hopefully (not realistically) school will calm down a bit and I'll be able to post more here. I'll never leave this site though -- EVER! -- there are some very, very great people here.
-paul