elparanoic said:
I am taken paroxetine since november 2004 and in this moment I am very good,but my personality have changed;I have no emotions,no sense,I don't cry,etc...
I experienced emotional numbness too... I think paxil may interfere with emotional mechanisms. However, this side effect was worth the tradeoff of paxil's calming of some mental but primarily physical symptoms of social anxiety.
I have taken both Zoloft and Paxil, but I didn't give either one a perfect, clean shot. I was on Paxil first, for 5-6 months, but was on accutane at the same time, which reduces serotonin levels. I was on Zoloft for only 3 months. Keeping these scenarios in mind, here is how these medications affected me:
- ZOLOFT: I found Zoloft to be more effective than Paxil in combating depression. In fact, Zoloft diminished my depression almost completely. Previous to Zoloft, I had both dysthymia and major depression, as well as other conditions related to low serotonin levels (e.g. suicidial thoughts, violent and aggressive thoughts and behaviors towards people who cared about me). I found Zoloft almost completely removed these conditions caused by serotonin defficiency. To the person who suffers from depression alone, Zoloft is a dream drug.
I quit Zoloft because it did not seem to help much with my social anxiety. At the time, I was thinking that perhaps my social anxiety is caused by dopamine deficiency, not serotonin. After quitting, I noticed a full return of my serotonin deficiency conditions, and I immediately realized how much Zoloft had improved my quality of life by enhancing mood. I regret not staying on Zoloft for an additional month or two to see if it would have an increased affect on social anxiety during that period.
I also found the side effects of taking Zoloft and quitting Zoloft to be slightly less than those of Paxil. Zoloft seems like a cleaner, purer SSRI. However, Paxil's greater effectiveness for my social anxiety may lie in its lack of purity as an SSRI.
PAXIL:
I took Paxil for 5-6 months, my first semester at college. I noticed personality changes, or perhaps I would say my true personality emerging. My first month at college, I hardly ate because I can't eat much with people watching me. I sat by myself tucked in a corner of the cafeteria. A month or two later, I was eating comfortably at a table full of friends and able to enjoy meals somewhat instead of viewing them as something to survive, a sort of suffering experience. By 5th month, my last month of Paxil but a month after I had quit Accutane, I had some outgoing episodes. For instance, I left my tray at an empty table and returned with a plate of food to find two attractive freshman girls sitting in seats right by mine. Instead of sheepishly moving away, I stayed and semi-comfortably was able to enjoy myself talking and flirting with these girls. Before paxil, my speech mechanisms would have tensed up and I would have been unable to interact in that way. During this meal, I was still unable to eat much food, so it is true that my inability to eat under pressure lingered on, though to a lesser extent. Anyways it was a good time. Small victories like these may sound pathetic to non-sufferers, but to me it meant something. If I could experience this sort of social interaction daily, quality of life would skyrocket.