Awwwwwww don't be so hard on yourself. You were in a situation that was loaded with anticipatory anxiety before you even left home, you had to wait til you were called to the chair, you had to sit still while some stranger touched your hair, no possible route of escape or way of leaving the situation once in it that wouldn't look bizarre, you had to sit right in front of a mirror, you had to sit being given attention by the hairdresser while other patrons sat and could see you, then you have to get up and walk past everyone. I mean it's totally LOADED! Be kind on yourself, and just applaud the fact that you actually went there and how brave that is. Love xxxxxxx