harwee anne
Member
When I was fourteen I had a sudden onset of ocds over night. I had terrible thoughts of hurting my baby sister all the thought worsened and became everything terrible thought you would never want to think about. I was diagnosed with PANDAS pediatric autoimmune neuropsychiatric disorder associated with strep. Basically I got strep throat and my own antibodies confused my brain for the infection and attacked my brain. I was fine for a while and got the ocds back. The thing that's bothering me the most is I have no emotion for my boyfriend anymore. I broke up with my ex for the same reason. My current boyfriend is everything I could want and more, I want a future with him but why don't i feel that emotion anymore? I also worry if I'm gay or asexual i don,t know what's wrong with me. I want this feeling back for my boyfriend so badly. Can an ocd change your emotions? It has always taken me a long time to fall in love with people. I just want to feel normal again I want those feelings back with my boyfriend. Is this ROCD?