ocd obessed with a person

[surfmonkey]

Hello everyone I'm new here. I am currently suffering from
An obsession over a person. I have been for about 4 years.
In order for me to "control" the thoughts I clean. I was my
Hands religiously because I'm afraid of germs due to my
Obsession. I obsess over a friend of mine. Not a close friend
Either. I imagine myself telling this person my life story or
Anything that happens during my day,my pain,my fears.
Sometimes I imagine being with this person in a intimate
Manor but when I see this person I have no sexual liking
For them! I'm happily married as well! I get severely anxious
When they txt me (in a good way) and I will talk to them as
Long as they allow me to. Let me make it clear that I am NOT
In love with them.I don't want to be with them. I would NEVER
Hurt them either. I just want this gone. I'm in the process
Of finding a therapist. Has anyone suffered from anything
Like this?! Am I alone?! Please post anything relative. This
Has gone on with this specific person for 4 years. I feel so
Psychotic anyone?

 

[guessed]

yes I have. it's terrible. I'd rather be obsessed with anything else.

 

[Feathers]

Yes, I've been a little bit obsessed with a guy or a few in the past, nothing serious though I guess.. I was mostly single then and it was mostly just crushes..

Surfmonkey, you might want to look at what you're maybe not getting in the marriage that this person offers you - maybe it's time to talk, emotional intimacy, friendship.. Do you have that with any other people in your life? Could you maybe try to get that with your husband/wife or with other people like friends or relatives? How is your life otherwise? I think if you have more people who are good friends and you do interesting things and talk about interesting things with them, this might become more normalized...
Also, getting counselling seems like a good thing, you could also read a book or a few about OCD etc.