You are doing fine. Please ignore your sanity for a moment. Things tend to work out,,,,,,
You are doing fine. Please ignore your sanity for a moment. Things tend to work out,,,,,,
i don't ever want to act......ever... i love my family, my friends, and everyone i know, and they just found out about my problem, they did not label me as crazy, but are helping me, and my mother just told me my father had OCD, she says that he used to stay up all night, worrying that he might die if he went to sleep... and he would ask the same questions, "what if" "what could happen"Trust me, the same thoughts happen to me. They seem so real that you start to believe that having that thought makes you possible of acting on it. Or, you think that you have already done something and you get overwhelmed with guilt. I know, it happens to me on a daily basis. Trust me, the fact that we worry so much tells us that we are good people who do not act.
The key is interrupting the thought as soon as it happens. Tell yourself "its not me, its my OCD". Then tell yoursef that you will worry bout it when you are ready. It is really hard at first. But with time it gets easier. You will probably find that, at first, you have more spikes. But usually the intnsity is less.
The main factory is you. You have to push yourself to not feed the monster.
Good luck.
R/
Mike
Scientests are starting to believe OCD may be genetic, or if someone in your family has it your more likely to get it.
i don't ever want to act......ever... i love my family, my friends, and everyone i know, and they just found out about my problem, they did not label me as crazy, but are helping me, and my mother just told me my father had OCD, she says that he used to stay up all night, worrying that he might die if he went to sleep... and he would ask the same questions, "what if" "what could happen"
maybe i get this from my dad?
hey, name is Nate, and i think i have OCD.
for most of my life, (18 now) i always have had one worry or fear, that i had TO CONCENTRATE ON...
here are some examples
one night... i couldn't fall asleep.. so from that night forth, i worried i couldn't fall asleep, even though i knew i could... and i could NOT drop the anxiety or worry until something new came up... and it did
one day, in late july, i got sick... and from then on, i worried every single day about puking... and i couldn't drop the fear until... something new came up.. and it did
one day, i was over my friends house, and he's a big knife fan... and he showed me this HUGE knife, and he let me hold it... and i had the thought "what if i stabbed him" that set off a MILLION alarms in my head, and then from there until now, i have worried i might hurt a loved one or a friend... i DONT want to.... hence the complete terror when the intrusive thought pops in my head... i have done my research.., i spend about 6 - 10 hours a day ruminating about how i could do it, and how scared i am, i asked myself the what if questions... and so on... i hate this... if i go into a spike i have to leave everything, and hide... i dont want to do anything bad, but i fear i will.... what do i do?
EDIT: i also have outside compulsions, like, if i dont get to bed by a certian time, i cannot sleep, because of the anxiety.. when i feel flustered, i NEED to do research, and try to figure out if i'm going crazy, i am scared of getting sick, so i use Hand Sanitizer like you drink water.. everything i touch i picture the germs... i dont like to touch doors... but it wont cause me anxiety... i just need to wash my hands every so often (once every hour or so)
HELP ME