ChefdeCuisine
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OCD - It has gotten to a point now that I am on this forum hoping to find someone or something that can relate and hopefully provide some insight on what I can do before I ruin my marriage with this behavior. I really find it hard to identify the hi and low points when I am having them. My PTSD doesn't help matters. I ask myself was it PTSD or OCD that made me do it. Am I really that weak that I cannot stop before a bad situation develops. Here are a few of the FUN stuff I do everyday
1. Count (EVERYTHING)
2. Memorize license plates of vehicles that pass me
3. Memorizing truck numbers of semis
4. count tile in a room or on a wall
5. count steps and cracks
6. Spend money on items I don't have to have
7. I get SUPER excited about something and obsess about it
8. I feel like I am not doing what I was meant to do in life
I should have been a CHEF but age and monetary responsibility will not allow me to persue my love in life.
But then I think what if you became a CHEF and still felt this way
I am sick of lying to my wife to try and cover up the stupid things I do, and I am tired of acting on an impulse before I have completely thought out the consequences of my actions. I am hoping the appointment I have coming up in FEB. will help me out. Thank you for caring enough to read my post.
1. Count (EVERYTHING)
2. Memorize license plates of vehicles that pass me
3. Memorizing truck numbers of semis
4. count tile in a room or on a wall
5. count steps and cracks
6. Spend money on items I don't have to have
7. I get SUPER excited about something and obsess about it
8. I feel like I am not doing what I was meant to do in life
I should have been a CHEF but age and monetary responsibility will not allow me to persue my love in life.
But then I think what if you became a CHEF and still felt this way
I am sick of lying to my wife to try and cover up the stupid things I do, and I am tired of acting on an impulse before I have completely thought out the consequences of my actions. I am hoping the appointment I have coming up in FEB. will help me out. Thank you for caring enough to read my post.