So hi, I've had OCD since childhood, diagnosed about 10 years ago. I've had it all. Obsessing about numbers, checking doors and heaters, symmetry-things, obsessive thougth abot being lesbian/pedophil/or some other monster. You name it, I've had it.
In real life people say I'm a caring and nice woman, now 36 years. Not working anymore because of OCD and also bipolar disorder, which was diagnosed 2,5 years ago when I was hospitalized for 3 weeks.
So over a year ago my partner (we've been together for 4 years now) used too much alcohol, every day and really much. It had slipped into that slowly after his cat died. Before he used alcohol but it wasnt such a problem.
So we talked about and argued and (verbally) fighted and he promised to be without alcohol for a year and after that use only small amounts. And so he did. He didn't drink at all for a year and now he has used normal amounts of alcohol, only weekends, like less than 10 small bottlers of beer in a week and there really is no problem really. So he has done what he promised.
The only thing is that I've started obsessing that he will become an alcoholic even though there is really nothing to suggest that. He is a nice man, for ex he has never been abusive in any way, he is faithfull and kind. We don'r even argue often.
But I obsess about this, I just think all the time in my head that what if...
It's just like with every other obsessive thought that I've had, it just keep coming back again and again and I can't force it completely out.
It's just I've used to all the other s*t there is but this is the first time I obsess about someone else than myself. And I have not yet found anything to deal with obsessions like this. I go to therapy once a week, but my therapist is not specialized in OCD so she just does not know how to help me. And I live in a small town and there is no other therapist to turn to at least I don't know anyone else.
So if there is anyone here who has obsessed about someone else in this way or similar to this situation it would really help me to hear that I am not alone in this world with this kind of obsession.
And any suggestions on how to get over this is really wellcome.
Because my OCD tells me that this is not an obsession, it is real an d at the same time my "healty " part of brain tells me this is obsession and I just should deal with it like all the other obsessions I've had.
In real life people say I'm a caring and nice woman, now 36 years. Not working anymore because of OCD and also bipolar disorder, which was diagnosed 2,5 years ago when I was hospitalized for 3 weeks.
So over a year ago my partner (we've been together for 4 years now) used too much alcohol, every day and really much. It had slipped into that slowly after his cat died. Before he used alcohol but it wasnt such a problem.
So we talked about and argued and (verbally) fighted and he promised to be without alcohol for a year and after that use only small amounts. And so he did. He didn't drink at all for a year and now he has used normal amounts of alcohol, only weekends, like less than 10 small bottlers of beer in a week and there really is no problem really. So he has done what he promised.
The only thing is that I've started obsessing that he will become an alcoholic even though there is really nothing to suggest that. He is a nice man, for ex he has never been abusive in any way, he is faithfull and kind. We don'r even argue often.
But I obsess about this, I just think all the time in my head that what if...
It's just like with every other obsessive thought that I've had, it just keep coming back again and again and I can't force it completely out.
It's just I've used to all the other s*t there is but this is the first time I obsess about someone else than myself. And I have not yet found anything to deal with obsessions like this. I go to therapy once a week, but my therapist is not specialized in OCD so she just does not know how to help me. And I live in a small town and there is no other therapist to turn to at least I don't know anyone else.
So if there is anyone here who has obsessed about someone else in this way or similar to this situation it would really help me to hear that I am not alone in this world with this kind of obsession.
And any suggestions on how to get over this is really wellcome.
Because my OCD tells me that this is not an obsession, it is real an d at the same time my "healty " part of brain tells me this is obsession and I just should deal with it like all the other obsessions I've had.
