Not sure where to start

[jnnnncnnn1232]

I'm eighteen years old. I am a misanthropist, for the most part. Today, my fiance, the only person I care about in the entire world, informed me that she wants to be with somebody else and that I am unattractive. I have never been so unhappy in my life. I feel like now, more than ever, everybody is against me. I feel like everyone wants me to suffer. I can't say much more because I am actually busy doing something, but I can't stand human beings anymore. I've attempted suicide six time in my life, and I'm hoping that if I try again tonight, I am successful.

 

[jaim38]

If your fiance doesn't like you, it's her loss. There are plenty of fishes in the sea. You're still young, there are still plenty of years ahead of you. One day you might find someone who is a better fit for you.

I also want to say that you don't need to be in a relationship to validate your existence. Your happiness and well being should not depend on another person, because people could let you down. It's best to start working on yourself, build up self esteem and confidence first before getting back into the dating arena.

 

[WishingICould]

Please don't do anything stupid. It's not worth taking your life over.

 

[Lowlight]

I’m interested in what you have to say. I was trying to write a good reply to what you have said, but I can’t really find the words. If you don’t mind please expand on your situation when you have the time. Talking this out is a lot more rewarding an experience than killing yourself.

 

[cocorose]

You're 18, you're so young. Even if it doesn't seem like it now there's so many good things that will happen in your life, if you let it. People annoy me.. and I think alot of people are generally not good human beings.. but there are alot of good people too, and those are the people you want in your life. But if you have that attitude then you will never be happy. I agree with jaim, when she said don't depend on anyone else to make you happy.. I've struggled with this for a long time but I realize that it's true, you really have to be happy with yourself first. That reminded me of a quote.. "Be happy for no reason, like a child. If you are happy for a reason, you’re in trouble, because that reason can be taken from you." -Deepak Chopra

 

[coyote]

everything changes constantly

everything in existence is always in flux

what is right now will not be moments from now

and no one, no matter how old or smart or wise they are, knows what will happen next

so even if things are a certain way right now in your life, you can be assured that they WILL change

and the only way you'll know what the change will be is if you stick around to see it

 

[coyote]

by the way...

Hi, and welcome to the forum.