rko74
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I went to a job skills workshop today, it lasted from 9am-330pm.I initially went in feeling not too bad, but i notice when i sit and and listen to the instructor i get uncomfortable when she looks at me.Like shes gonna she through my soul "feeling" and see that i hopelessly scared of people.Anyway i notice my discomfort builds and kinda peaks more when i try to talk etc.I tried talking to the guy next to me a bit i think i did pretty good.But in the back of my mind i was saying to myself "god what if he sees my "fear" and thinks im strange.Also i notice i really dont have confidence in my voice{im soft spoken}.I guess my worst fear would be if a was talking to someone and my voice breaks up or just get too emotionally overwelmed and start to burst into tears.
I get this symptom that i cant quite figure out what it is, i get the overwhelming feeling that i will loose control.I put my hand up to my mouth and chin and get this feeling like im going to fall or do something really embarassing such as start shaking.Its like that sensation when your sleeping and feel like your falling and jump up awake.That feeling of loosing control.So i squirm in my seat and try to bury it and cope with the feeling as best as i can.I notice this when i go out and eat in public, like say im going to take a bite of food.My mind says like "what if i loose control and drop my food".Like your carrying a cup of tea in a foodcourt and you think everyone is watching you carry that cup, and your frightened of dropping the cup and loosing self control.
I know it sounds weird but its just one of my symptoms i get in my mind
I get this symptom that i cant quite figure out what it is, i get the overwhelming feeling that i will loose control.I put my hand up to my mouth and chin and get this feeling like im going to fall or do something really embarassing such as start shaking.Its like that sensation when your sleeping and feel like your falling and jump up awake.That feeling of loosing control.So i squirm in my seat and try to bury it and cope with the feeling as best as i can.I notice this when i go out and eat in public, like say im going to take a bite of food.My mind says like "what if i loose control and drop my food".Like your carrying a cup of tea in a foodcourt and you think everyone is watching you carry that cup, and your frightened of dropping the cup and loosing self control.
I know it sounds weird but its just one of my symptoms i get in my mind