nici
Member
hi there, Im new to this forum, been posting on blushing forum. I have a form of SA related to fear of blushing which started over a year ago, Im 36. The real problem is the depression that accompanies me. Ive suffered from minor depression in the past but this is dreadful. I lost count of the number of times Ive seriously sat and thought about ending it all cos its just not worth it. thats a massive thing for me to say as I have 2 teenage daughters who i adore and would never in a million yrs want to put them through that grief. so why do I still keep thinking that its for the best and living is just too hard! Ive been seeing a doc who's had me on different meds, seen a therapist relating to the blushing. Ive now been giving another anti depressant to try along with diazepam which doesnt seem to help. My personality is changing (not with meds), I feel very resentful sometimes towards people i love, become agitated very quick, and sometimes say hurtful things, I think it boils down to the fact that they cant help me and I want them to understand. Does that make sense???