for more then one year ive had no friends, lost contact with my two friends from school days, because i didnt go to a certain party, i dont blame them for not wanting to know me anymore, its no fun for them.
it can be difficult when people bring it up in conversation, family will say "going out with friends on the weekend" ....i just escape by saying "perhaps" .."nothing concrete" ...vague replies usually work.
I really tried to make friends with this girl at work, but i found it so difficult to not be awkward, sometimes i just rambled and probably wasnt making enough of an impression for her to show interest back.
we would get along and then suddenly i'd say something (unintentionally) silly! and someone more interesting would walk into the room so the attention turns to them straight away, even if we're int he middle of a convo.
its not easy joining in with a clique who are tight! especially with people in their early twenties have booming social lives.
My main qualm is that i can;t seem to talk any sense in the heat of the moment, and its really getting me down. =(
