GrvN
New member
Hello all, I am a new user and I have read through some of the post on here. I feel every ones pain. I have sympathy for you and I hope every one finds some kind of help.
I have a really bad problem with germs. I wash my hands 30 times a day and I dodge people with a cold or the flu or any other sickness. I dont touch door knobs along with a lot of other stuff. I started celexa about 4 months ago and it has really helped with my hand washing and fear of germs. But I still have a problem. I have a problem about sex.
When I was in high school I had unprotected sex with a girl at a party. I had just found out that my girlfriend was cheating on me and this was my way to rebel against the situation. Well the next day my friends started trying to scare my that I had herpes because they found out she had it. Well for about a month I was seriously depressed and I was just waiting for the day that I got it. Well 6 years later I never got it. And I am gratefull for that.
The problem is that ever since that happened, every time I have sex with a woman I get seriously depressed for about 6 months after the fact. My mind keeps racing with thoughts about Herpes, HPV, aids, ect... This has happened 3 times so I just quit having sex all together. There have been times where I have been at a bar, taken a girl home and as soon as my pants come off I flip out and end up kicker her out, or if I am at her house, I will leave faster than a bolt of lighting. This has happened about 10 times. It really sucks. It sucks because I dont have a choice if I want to have sex with her or not. I just cant. I know what it will lead too. Depression.
Ive seen a therapist, about the hand washing and stuff, and it helps, but I am really afraid about talking to him about the sex stuff. He made me start some exposure training. Drinking after people, not washing my hands after touching door knobs, ect... But Im afraid that he is going to suggest that I just need to start having sex with girls as an exposure type therapy.
I have no idea what to do. Im dating this girl, and im dreading the day when sex comes up.
Help me please, what do I do?
I have a really bad problem with germs. I wash my hands 30 times a day and I dodge people with a cold or the flu or any other sickness. I dont touch door knobs along with a lot of other stuff. I started celexa about 4 months ago and it has really helped with my hand washing and fear of germs. But I still have a problem. I have a problem about sex.
When I was in high school I had unprotected sex with a girl at a party. I had just found out that my girlfriend was cheating on me and this was my way to rebel against the situation. Well the next day my friends started trying to scare my that I had herpes because they found out she had it. Well for about a month I was seriously depressed and I was just waiting for the day that I got it. Well 6 years later I never got it. And I am gratefull for that.
The problem is that ever since that happened, every time I have sex with a woman I get seriously depressed for about 6 months after the fact. My mind keeps racing with thoughts about Herpes, HPV, aids, ect... This has happened 3 times so I just quit having sex all together. There have been times where I have been at a bar, taken a girl home and as soon as my pants come off I flip out and end up kicker her out, or if I am at her house, I will leave faster than a bolt of lighting. This has happened about 10 times. It really sucks. It sucks because I dont have a choice if I want to have sex with her or not. I just cant. I know what it will lead too. Depression.
Ive seen a therapist, about the hand washing and stuff, and it helps, but I am really afraid about talking to him about the sex stuff. He made me start some exposure training. Drinking after people, not washing my hands after touching door knobs, ect... But Im afraid that he is going to suggest that I just need to start having sex with girls as an exposure type therapy.
I have no idea what to do. Im dating this girl, and im dreading the day when sex comes up.
Help me please, what do I do?