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In my opinion OCD is one of the most "evil" conditions ever,cancer,HIV these kill,but OCD make s you not even know what is real and what is not,(Pure O of course)I do not know what do i feel,i do not know what do I think,i don't even know,when i look into a mirror,who i am.
Here's the "new simptom",or how should i call it:i have HUGE mood swings.When i wake up i anoyed that i have to go to shcool,there I am bored,i come home singing like crazy on the streets,because i;m happy.I can't wait to do my workout routine to feel better,but i don't do it because i am suddenly tired.I go to sleep,thinking that i will NEVER do that again.I wake up and guess what,i want to do my workout but i need to masturbate first,i tell myself every time that i won't do it so often,but i never keep my word.When i;m finished with the workout go for a walk,telling myself "i need a girlfriend,i don't want to be lonely,i will do something!!!"after some time I come home full of energy,feeling like I already won.But then i come into a depression,that's what i say every damn day.I begin watching movies like an idiot,knowing that my eyes hurt but i can't stop.(telling myself again that i won't do it anymore).then my mom comes into my room(i'm 19)and starts yelling,for no reason.That's been going on for 10 years,i feel very depressed,wanting to do something,but can't.SHe leaves,anger burning inside of me,and the most depressing thing,she talks to her girlfriends on the phone,with my father(who doesen't care about me)and she's happy.ANd i have to stay in my bed,depressed,angry,with a lot of sick **** going to my mind that i can't stop.
I close my eyes,happy,knowing that tomorrow it will be better,but my friends...tomorrow never comes!
If you could help me please control these moodswings,please help me!
In my opinion OCD is one of the most "evil" conditions ever,cancer,HIV these kill,but OCD make s you not even know what is real and what is not,(Pure O of course)I do not know what do i feel,i do not know what do I think,i don't even know,when i look into a mirror,who i am.
Here's the "new simptom",or how should i call it:i have HUGE mood swings.When i wake up i anoyed that i have to go to shcool,there I am bored,i come home singing like crazy on the streets,because i;m happy.I can't wait to do my workout routine to feel better,but i don't do it because i am suddenly tired.I go to sleep,thinking that i will NEVER do that again.I wake up and guess what,i want to do my workout but i need to masturbate first,i tell myself every time that i won't do it so often,but i never keep my word.When i;m finished with the workout go for a walk,telling myself "i need a girlfriend,i don't want to be lonely,i will do something!!!"after some time I come home full of energy,feeling like I already won.But then i come into a depression,that's what i say every damn day.I begin watching movies like an idiot,knowing that my eyes hurt but i can't stop.(telling myself again that i won't do it anymore).then my mom comes into my room(i'm 19)and starts yelling,for no reason.That's been going on for 10 years,i feel very depressed,wanting to do something,but can't.SHe leaves,anger burning inside of me,and the most depressing thing,she talks to her girlfriends on the phone,with my father(who doesen't care about me)and she's happy.ANd i have to stay in my bed,depressed,angry,with a lot of sick **** going to my mind that i can't stop.
I close my eyes,happy,knowing that tomorrow it will be better,but my friends...tomorrow never comes!
If you could help me please control these moodswings,please help me!
