Reno
New member
Hello there, I came across this forum and was hoping someone could relate to my story.
I'm a healthy, happily married for over 20 years male with great kids and a great job. I'm pretty well respected through the community and on the outside I have a great life. I have no financial stress, my marriage is stable and the family is doing well.
Unfortunately, I tend to be obsessive about things. I worry tons. Stress is a big factor in contributing to my thinking...but before, it was obsessing about my health, or finances, or something I may have said...I'd ruminate for days about it....
Anyway, I came across a news story about someone who committed suicide out of the blue. What they described was almost similiar to my situation, a well rounded guy that have everything going for him and then, suddenly, he kills himself. No note, no reason...everyone was shocked. I began to obsess about that and now its my #1 thing, from when I go to bed, to when I wake up...will I commit suicide, what will my family think, what if I suddenly snap while driving...I tell ya, I was able to deal with the health issues, but now this stupid thought is literally cemented in my head. I get distraced a bit by a phone call or something else, but then my mind gravitates back to it and I'm obsessing about suicidal thoughts again.
This has been one big problem and something I really can't discuss with my wife.
Can anyone here give me some relief?
I'm a healthy, happily married for over 20 years male with great kids and a great job. I'm pretty well respected through the community and on the outside I have a great life. I have no financial stress, my marriage is stable and the family is doing well.
Unfortunately, I tend to be obsessive about things. I worry tons. Stress is a big factor in contributing to my thinking...but before, it was obsessing about my health, or finances, or something I may have said...I'd ruminate for days about it....
Anyway, I came across a news story about someone who committed suicide out of the blue. What they described was almost similiar to my situation, a well rounded guy that have everything going for him and then, suddenly, he kills himself. No note, no reason...everyone was shocked. I began to obsess about that and now its my #1 thing, from when I go to bed, to when I wake up...will I commit suicide, what will my family think, what if I suddenly snap while driving...I tell ya, I was able to deal with the health issues, but now this stupid thought is literally cemented in my head. I get distraced a bit by a phone call or something else, but then my mind gravitates back to it and I'm obsessing about suicidal thoughts again.
This has been one big problem and something I really can't discuss with my wife.
Can anyone here give me some relief?