ocram
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As a premise, ive always had anxiety problems and depression with some success in keeping it at bay despite some recurring episodes. The newest thing I've been experiencing is...panic attacks. It started with slight adrenaline charges that made me think I had heart problems. Then it started getting worse, I noticed it happened in social situations. When I was helping a customer, when I started an interview, when I was in front of a small crowd. Palpitations, feeling of despair, depersonalization. One time i was stuck in traffic and I was afraid I was going to lose it, and I was goign to block traffic, the waves of anxiety were killing me. The latest (and worst) one happened when I took a course and it was the first lesson and we were supposed to introduce ourselves...When it was almost my turn I couldnt handle it anymore, whatever I was goign to say it was going to come out all weird and people were goign to think I was a freak, and I was going to faint ot breath heavily and roin anything. So I pretended I had to leave because of an emergency, I wa so distressed that the drive home was a nightmare, I thought this is my life, this is what it's going to be like, ill never fit in, ill never be normal, how can I conduct a normal life with this stuff happening to me. I am very scared and I cant talk to anyone... I dont know what to do....