boredguy
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Hey all. I dont really know where to start, im really anxious even typing on here. Anyhow, i've been "lurking" here for a while and finally decided to do the right thing and register. Soo here is my overly long introduction and story of how i got here. I know most people wont read it all, but i think its interesting 
No surprise; I think I have Social anxiety/phobia. I've always been "shy" and avoided interaction with people. It didn't seem too bad until I started getting depressed.
I was in college doing pretty good, until all my friends went to Uni. (All honor students who where on the fast track). At the same time i got a job in my major (engineering); which i hated. I stuck with that job thinking i would like it better after school and knew what i was doing, and knowing it would look good on resumes. I met one friend call him X (he comes back in later). This lasted about 1yr.
I get my AA and go to Uni with all my friends. Everything sounds good right? I was really excited and happy to be moving to a big city and to be with my friends....for about 3 weeks. Problem was that I hadn't really talked to my friends in a year so i was really anxious about it, and avoided it. Of course i had roomies, none of them bad but all of them just as shy as me. This is exactly what i thought i wanted but it just led me to further seclusion. I went months where i hardly ever talked to people. I thought my friends all forgot about me. At the same time i decided i hated my major and hated school, you can probably understand when i say i hated everything at that time in my life.
Suddenly a door opened. I had a chance to escape the hell I had created. My parents had been thinking of opening a car lot for a while (already owns/runs related business). Both my parents knew i wasn't happy at Uni and where pressuring me to come home and start a car dealership. So after a few months of denying them and failing classes ( first time i ever got lower than a C). I convinced myself that being a car salesman; possibly the worst job ever for someone with SA was the right job for me. So i spent about about 1 year getting the business all set up and working as a manager at my dads business before opening the lot.
Big surprise I hated owning a car dealership, i hated trying to sell people stuff, i hated talking to people, hated telling people they missed payment and i was gonna be mean and repo their car. All around it sucked and my life just started spiraling into even deeper depression.
Now its been about 6 months of sitting on my butt with very little social interaction, and of course depression. But it is starting to get better, i'm seeing a therapist, and my mood is really improving. So the story comes full circle; I am going to go back to the same comm. college i graduated from 2 years ago this fall. Unfortunately, i have no clue what to major in. I'm only planning on taking like 2-3 classes. My younger brother will be attending his first semester. I am hoping to take at least one class with him, to try and meet people. He is really a social butterfly and has a crapload of friends.
Okay for the average person thats only gonna read the first and last little bit; In the last 2 yrs: Iwent to uni, got really depressed, dropped out of uni, started a business, failed a business, and am now going back to Comm college. I know i wrote a ton but i feel alot better now. and could probably fill another page thanks to anyone who read the whole thing lol.
No surprise; I think I have Social anxiety/phobia. I've always been "shy" and avoided interaction with people. It didn't seem too bad until I started getting depressed.
I was in college doing pretty good, until all my friends went to Uni. (All honor students who where on the fast track). At the same time i got a job in my major (engineering); which i hated. I stuck with that job thinking i would like it better after school and knew what i was doing, and knowing it would look good on resumes. I met one friend call him X (he comes back in later). This lasted about 1yr.
I get my AA and go to Uni with all my friends. Everything sounds good right? I was really excited and happy to be moving to a big city and to be with my friends....for about 3 weeks. Problem was that I hadn't really talked to my friends in a year so i was really anxious about it, and avoided it. Of course i had roomies, none of them bad but all of them just as shy as me. This is exactly what i thought i wanted but it just led me to further seclusion. I went months where i hardly ever talked to people. I thought my friends all forgot about me. At the same time i decided i hated my major and hated school, you can probably understand when i say i hated everything at that time in my life.
Suddenly a door opened. I had a chance to escape the hell I had created. My parents had been thinking of opening a car lot for a while (already owns/runs related business). Both my parents knew i wasn't happy at Uni and where pressuring me to come home and start a car dealership. So after a few months of denying them and failing classes ( first time i ever got lower than a C). I convinced myself that being a car salesman; possibly the worst job ever for someone with SA was the right job for me. So i spent about about 1 year getting the business all set up and working as a manager at my dads business before opening the lot.
Big surprise I hated owning a car dealership, i hated trying to sell people stuff, i hated talking to people, hated telling people they missed payment and i was gonna be mean and repo their car. All around it sucked and my life just started spiraling into even deeper depression.
Now its been about 6 months of sitting on my butt with very little social interaction, and of course depression. But it is starting to get better, i'm seeing a therapist, and my mood is really improving. So the story comes full circle; I am going to go back to the same comm. college i graduated from 2 years ago this fall. Unfortunately, i have no clue what to major in. I'm only planning on taking like 2-3 classes. My younger brother will be attending his first semester. I am hoping to take at least one class with him, to try and meet people. He is really a social butterfly and has a crapload of friends.
Okay for the average person thats only gonna read the first and last little bit; In the last 2 yrs: Iwent to uni, got really depressed, dropped out of uni, started a business, failed a business, and am now going back to Comm college. I know i wrote a ton but i feel alot better now. and could probably fill another page
thanks to anyone who read the whole thing lol.
