Need help......Why this stange thought?

[varadmark]

I am 38 years old man. I am a victim of OCD since my childhood. I suffer from common symptoms of OCD like checking door lock multiple times, fear of germs etc. However, my recent problem is making my life miserable. Three months ago my father passed away suddenly because of severe cardiac arrest. He passed away when he was at home. Two doctors checked him and declared him dead. I accepted this bitter truth that time and performed his last riots as per our religion. The next few days, I was very much depressed and under shock. Thereafter, when I was about to recover, I started facing a new (and strange) problem. Now, I think persistently whether my father was really dead or he was just unconscious and we all declared him dead. Did the doctors check him thoroughly? I don’t know why this thought is coming to my mind. I consulted my family doctor but he did not take it so seriously. Lately, I have also started getting panic attacks, occasionally.

 

[Thesuper]

As far as I know, determining death is very absolute when done by a doctor, I recommend you talk to a counselor about this, talking to someone about this would help you.

I am sorry your Father has passed away, may he rest in peace.

 

[SilentStranger]

Varadmark,

Sorry to hear about your father. This is something I dread, losing my parents. I don't have many friends and none of them are that close anyway. So my family are the only people that I am comfortable with.

Hey mate, at least think about in this way. You know that he is in a better place now, in peace. Away from the troubles of this world.

Yeah, I think talking about it might help. I mean we are here and to some extent will be able to provide support, but its probably better if you can talk to someone professional in person.

-SS

 

[Tryin]

I am 38 years old man. I am a victim of OCD since my childhood. I suffer from common symptoms of OCD like checking door lock multiple times, fear of germs etc. However, my recent problem is making my life miserable. Three months ago my father passed away suddenly because of severe cardiac arrest. He passed away when he was at home. Two doctors checked him and declared him dead. I accepted this bitter truth that time and performed his last riots as per our religion. The next few days, I was very much depressed and under shock. Thereafter, when I was about to recover, I started facing a new (and strange) problem. Now, I think persistently whether my father was really dead or he was just unconscious and we all declared him dead. Did the doctors check him thoroughly? I don’t know why this thought is coming to my mind. I consulted my family doctor but he did not take it so seriously. Lately, I have also started getting panic attacks, occasionally.

I think I understand the thought of burying alive - it's one of the scariest, most desperate things to think about, when you are confronted with death. It keeps coming to my mind, too (I remember it was intense around the time my grandma died, and came back with every death in my family). Maybe you could study something about how death is being declared - that might calm you down. If you feel you need help with dealing with this, see a therapist.