BrokenSmile
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Hello guys!
I have a big problem and i come here hoping you will understand me and help me with some advice. My story is like that:
I have a boyfriend for about 7 months. I love him very much and also this is my only relationship that involved sex. Things was great all this time ... my boyfriend was also my best friend and we use to see each other almost every day and spend a lot of time together. We had great moments together and he thinks the same. Was some stupid quarrels but allways we make it up together.
Last week i made a stupid mistake. We didn't see eachother for about a week coz he was out of town and when he come back ... we start fight.I was a little upset and very nagger for some stuff coz i feeld that he is some kind coldly with me by acting like that.
We date, it was ok ... he want to go at a family planning center but was too late so we go to a club. There was ok until i drank beer ... i get dizzy quickly :? . We start kissing and we went at toilet. We look the door and we start kissing and doing stuff and we were almos ready to have sex. I becomed paranoiac ... a lot of thoughts come in my head and i said my boyfriend something like: " You are with me in this relationship just for sex". Those words offend him so much that we go at a table he buy me another beer and then he leave me in that club without telling me. But i also told him that i want something special for us and i wanna make love with him not sex, i asked him if he love me and i told him that the toilet is not the right place to make love... did i was wrong?.. he forget all the other words and is stick to that phrase however much i trying to explain him that i don't belive what i said and even don't wanted to say something like this ... he just misundertooding me.
Now i'm sorry for that and i tried to explain him that i don't think like that about him and i love him but he don't understand ... he told me that he don't love me like before and can't be with me anymore because i remind him those words... those words that he think is the truth about what i feel for him . He wanna remain just buddyes. How can you be buddy with someone that you love?!
He told me i have to prove him somehow that i don't think about him what i said .... i don't know how. How can i prove him that i love him and those words don't mean anything coz i don't belive what i said? I need you to give me some advices to do that. I really love him and it was so beautiful this relationship it will be so wrong to end like this ....
I have a big problem and i come here hoping you will understand me and help me with some advice. My story is like that:
I have a boyfriend for about 7 months. I love him very much and also this is my only relationship that involved sex. Things was great all this time ... my boyfriend was also my best friend and we use to see each other almost every day and spend a lot of time together. We had great moments together and he thinks the same. Was some stupid quarrels but allways we make it up together.
Last week i made a stupid mistake. We didn't see eachother for about a week coz he was out of town and when he come back ... we start fight.I was a little upset and very nagger for some stuff coz i feeld that he is some kind coldly with me by acting like that.
We date, it was ok ... he want to go at a family planning center but was too late so we go to a club. There was ok until i drank beer ... i get dizzy quickly :? . We start kissing and we went at toilet. We look the door and we start kissing and doing stuff and we were almos ready to have sex. I becomed paranoiac ... a lot of thoughts come in my head and i said my boyfriend something like: " You are with me in this relationship just for sex". Those words offend him so much that we go at a table he buy me another beer and then he leave me in that club without telling me. But i also told him that i want something special for us and i wanna make love with him not sex, i asked him if he love me and i told him that the toilet is not the right place to make love... did i was wrong?.. he forget all the other words and is stick to that phrase however much i trying to explain him that i don't belive what i said and even don't wanted to say something like this ... he just misundertooding me.
Now i'm sorry for that and i tried to explain him that i don't think like that about him and i love him but he don't understand ... he told me that he don't love me like before and can't be with me anymore because i remind him those words... those words that he think is the truth about what i feel for him . He wanna remain just buddyes. How can you be buddy with someone that you love?!
He told me i have to prove him somehow that i don't think about him what i said .... i don't know how. How can i prove him that i love him and those words don't mean anything coz i don't belive what i said? I need you to give me some advices to do that. I really love him and it was so beautiful this relationship it will be so wrong to end like this ....