My Story

SomeRandomGuy

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after reading on other websites and this one, im not sure if i have social anxiety or not, so here's my story:

as a youngster, i was full of energy and always happy. i often made people laugh (as most kids do). i had a bad temper for a while, but eventually outgrew it. my dad died when i was five, and i was sad for some time, but that didn't cause any long-lasting mood changes. in elementary school, i had a group of three-four friends that i hung out with almost every day. i was very outgoing with them and in the classroom, and made new friends easily. i also was a classroom favorite among the teachers.

in middle school, i was very popular. i was athletic (basketball) and talked to many friends online via instant messenger. i still hung out with the same three-four friends that i did in elementary school almost every day. but then, within the same week, my grandpa died and i got cut from the basketball team during my last year of middle school.

then there came high school. as high school progressed, i slowly lost touch with the friends that i had hung out with most of my life. i just didn't say as much as i used to. instead of spending a lot of time with those friends, i usually just played xbox alone. i was known as the smart kid who didn't talk that much.

i just finished my freshman year in college. i had my ups and downs, and my grades were less than spectacular (something im not used to). i made a few friends, but only one close one. when me and my friends hang out, i don't have that much to say, and i have this sense that they're getting bored with me or something.

what im confused about is this: am i just growing up? or am i developing social anxiety disorder? if you have any questions feel free to ask, and your feedback is greatly appreciated. :)
 
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SomeRandomGuy

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Hi SomeRandomGuy:) welcome to the site.

Welcome to the site.

Hi, and welcome to SPW

I can really relate to your story, my social phobia wasn't bad until high school either (though it was developing slightly earlier than you as something purely situational during middle school years...I felt extremely uncomfortable in just a few social situations back then). During high school I was also known as the quiet studious one and I slowly started to avoid everyone and any situation which would force me to speak to anyone.

I just finished sophomore year of college, I have a two friends though it's questionable how close they really are to me, they always seem bored with me as well. My roommate of two years made some comment about me, "nobody likes her" and it was pretty much heartbreaking. Good questions, I can't tell if it is growing up to feel this way toward friends or if it's SA...I have a hard time distinguishing where the dividing line is sometimes.

thanks for the welcome everyone! im scheduling a doctor's appt to see what he thinks about this, maybe get some counseling or medication
 
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