WriterChick3
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Hey.
This is something stupid to bring up, and I'm embarassed to say it because I'm worried of what people will think of me on here (like how I worry of what everyone thinks);
I'm so sorry for my selfish talk and acting like a fool. When people ask questions and I always throw in bits of my personal life as if I have a right. I annoy people, I'm stupid, I suck, I'm scum and I seem to be a self-righteous jerk who makes people feel weird. Which is what I don't want (I worry of becoming this way -- so I figure I must be like this. I'm so confused!)
I complain, I'm depressed, I'm stressed, I'm deeply confused, I'm frustrated. I don't understand why people in real life can be so mean, and this gives me less hope for my future.
I have high hopes for who I want to be someday, I'll never let go of it.
But nobody wants to befriend or work with someone who has an attitude like me, or someone who is ugly and stupid and fat and useless. Nobody wants to befriend someone who has had to deal with no friends, dating or someone who had a bad parent.
Nobody understands me. I don't think anybody ever will. I hate life, I am starting to get peeved with humanity. There are a few people who I love and respect, but I know they only pity me.
People ignore me. I'm ugly. I worry so much I'm gonna go insane, or hurt myself or hurt people (I have no real intentions on hurting people -- I just worry so much about myself that I kinda do exaggerate, I'll admit. It's probably because I don't hang around enough people to know the differences and stuff. People say my feelings are normal, but I fear everything.)
My point is: I want to say I'm sorry to the people I annoy here, people who probably want to cuss me out, who think I'm crud.
I'm sorry. I feel like I'm gonna go crazy; I worry so much it's not funny. I don't feel like a victim, but a lot of people in real life do treat me oddly. Maybe it's because I'm the quiet girl who they know will not confront them or argue. My life sucks. I suck.
I'm sorry for this stupid vent, too. I really am.
Yes, I know there are people out there that have it a lot worse than me. I am not saying other people who don't have the things above (friends, lover, etc) are bad .... I mean about myself because I hate myself and I feel cursed, like this is how my life is always going to be. Something that can't be avoided.
This is something stupid to bring up, and I'm embarassed to say it because I'm worried of what people will think of me on here (like how I worry of what everyone thinks);
I'm so sorry for my selfish talk and acting like a fool. When people ask questions and I always throw in bits of my personal life as if I have a right. I annoy people, I'm stupid, I suck, I'm scum and I seem to be a self-righteous jerk who makes people feel weird. Which is what I don't want (I worry of becoming this way -- so I figure I must be like this. I'm so confused!)
I complain, I'm depressed, I'm stressed, I'm deeply confused, I'm frustrated. I don't understand why people in real life can be so mean, and this gives me less hope for my future.
I have high hopes for who I want to be someday, I'll never let go of it.
But nobody wants to befriend or work with someone who has an attitude like me, or someone who is ugly and stupid and fat and useless. Nobody wants to befriend someone who has had to deal with no friends, dating or someone who had a bad parent.
Nobody understands me. I don't think anybody ever will. I hate life, I am starting to get peeved with humanity. There are a few people who I love and respect, but I know they only pity me.
People ignore me. I'm ugly. I worry so much I'm gonna go insane, or hurt myself or hurt people (I have no real intentions on hurting people -- I just worry so much about myself that I kinda do exaggerate, I'll admit. It's probably because I don't hang around enough people to know the differences and stuff. People say my feelings are normal, but I fear everything.)
My point is: I want to say I'm sorry to the people I annoy here, people who probably want to cuss me out, who think I'm crud.
I'm sorry. I feel like I'm gonna go crazy; I worry so much it's not funny. I don't feel like a victim, but a lot of people in real life do treat me oddly. Maybe it's because I'm the quiet girl who they know will not confront them or argue. My life sucks. I suck.
I'm sorry for this stupid vent, too. I really am.
Yes, I know there are people out there that have it a lot worse than me. I am not saying other people who don't have the things above (friends, lover, etc) are bad .... I mean about myself because I hate myself and I feel cursed, like this is how my life is always going to be. Something that can't be avoided.
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Honestly, I've been self-hating a bit too lately. It's a horrible... I guess you could say "rut"? to get out of and definitely not healthy. What I try to do (And I saw this technique on another post too, sorry I can't tell you which one) is challenge those negative thoughts. I'll be honest, it doesn't ALWAYS work for me, but it's a start to thinking something positive and it's better than constantly dwelling on the negatives.