To my darling sa, well we have been married unhappily for 18 years now and i've realised you never did tell me about all these wedding vows i made.
Apparently i pledged, every day
To believe i am inferior to everyone else on the planet.
To imagine all the horrible things that could happen that day, including such unbearable things as--someone talks to me
To avoid seeing friends and family just so you can have me all to yourself
To judge myself as completely worthless if i ever blush, stutter, or say something which you deem 'stupid'*
To beat myself up for the rest of the day about this fact. To tell myself that tomorrow i must do BETTER. Try HARDER. That i can do better, if i really try. I can make it, if i reaallly try.
And to tomorrow do the same things all over again 8)
This i pledge to you, and continue to plege every day, in order to maintain this most successful of marriages, with all the hate in my heart,
your dearest flake xx
ps--i'm leaving you
*ie, most things
Apparently i pledged, every day
To believe i am inferior to everyone else on the planet.
To imagine all the horrible things that could happen that day, including such unbearable things as--someone talks to me
To avoid seeing friends and family just so you can have me all to yourself
To judge myself as completely worthless if i ever blush, stutter, or say something which you deem 'stupid'*
To beat myself up for the rest of the day about this fact. To tell myself that tomorrow i must do BETTER. Try HARDER. That i can do better, if i really try. I can make it, if i reaallly try.
And to tomorrow do the same things all over again 8)
This i pledge to you, and continue to plege every day, in order to maintain this most successful of marriages, with all the hate in my heart,
your dearest flake xx
ps--i'm leaving you
*ie, most things