the_green_bastard
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Does anyone else feel insecure with sexuality in and of itself? Does anyone else lose interest in sex with a person upon coming to love them? Does anyone else feel "unworthy" of love, as if, (it's hard for me to put such abstract thought into language), as if love, sex, etc., are just things "for" other people, not "for" you? Is anyone else nagged by the thought that members of the opposite sex consider you "non-sexual" and simply an "innocent," quasi-juvenile by-stander in any such conversation/situation, or worse yet, are "creeped out" by you in that way ("creeped out" and a connotation of sexual "icckyness" are mutually inseperable). When I walk, I'm plagued by the thought that women I casually glance at, as one does when walking, will see me every time I look at them and get creeped out; will think I'm creepy. It's terribly difficult just to talk to a woman... Do I make eye contact? I don't remember if I do that with men; it's so casual around them... How long? I never know what to do with my hands... I look around frantically, so as not to appear as if I'm staring at them... I must seem absolutely insane... Am I that far gone?