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simplyme21434
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So recently i was told that i ahve obsessive compulsive disorder...however mine might be a little different as it is called pure-o...which means i only have obsessions...and it drives me CRAZY!!! i even fear writing or thinking these things cuz what if they come true...i feel embarrased to tell people i have this because of what they might think.... my obsessions come and go but they make me suffer and panick and feel extreme anxiety...sometimes i know my fears are kind of irrational but sometimes my brain is like "anything is possible"..my ocd also makes me feel very needy...like i cant be alone cuz i'll drive myself crazy...my thoughts come racing even when im with people...they talk to me and i just have to REMEMBER a certain event...and every single detail about it...and since i cant, i get so anxious, i start crying and i dont know how to find relief...i feel so WEAK when i cant "reason my brain out of this ocd thinking" its so painful...i feel like i need to be in control all the time or else i panick...for example if im on a long plane ride and i fall asleep, i wake up alarmed because i wasnt in control and if im not in control anything could have happened....i want to 'snap out of it" and not even have these thoughts but its hard....someone help me, save me..please!!