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Andy44
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Hi there,
Just thought i'd vent a little.
Well Im 25 and have had HH since 20 which was right into my 3rd year in college when things were just picking up for me socially and otherwise. I used to play the guitar and drums when I joined college and within 1st year got into the college band. We guys were picking up and getting famous. All along my HH getting worse(Like i remember , during the jams, exchanging guitars with another guy and they would spend 2 mins scrubbing it down with a towel.. i just thought i was little more prone to sweat than others). Had my share of crushes and girls being interested in me.. but as I got into 3rd year it got really bad.. i retracted into a shell and quit the band. Stopped playing guitar as it was HELL to play in front of people . I would start to sweat from my hands and eventually get so embarassed that my face would turn cherry red and ill be dripping sweat from my face. So a couple of those experiences and Ive got a phobia you can say to playing guitar(except maybe sitting alone in my room in the wee hours of the night).
I have landed a dream job after completion of my college, as an airline pilot, something most would kill for. Had a real challenge getting thru my training(I fly with gloves and am a butt of many jokes in the company) but that hasn't detered me from acheiving my goals in life. I have terrible bouts of depression because I never am able to express myself socially(be it with collegues or women) expect maybe with a few close friends, mostly male. Only a handful know of my condition, but I still walk on.
I read on these forums people talking about discussing your problem with you near and dear ones, but I for some strange reason can never get myself to do that. I feel like Im showing myself as a weakling. I dont want anyones sympathy, in fact thats the worst thing I could ask for(you know people going awwww when you have a bad sweaty day.. ughhh). So im in a catch 22 most of the times.
ETS is the only thing left(I have only tried external applicants, and will never touch drugs with a 10 foot pole). My parents have a good point against ETS.. they say anything thats coming and messing with a bunch of nerves in your body is not worth the risk. I agree, id rather be sweaty and depressed than paralysed and dependent(at least its only my problem
for now). Going for a good workout works wonders for my confidence and reduces my sweating to some extent. Other things I have noticed about my sweating is it reduces as you stay up late(basically connected to your circadian low I guess, in other words when the body processes begin to slow). Of course, the common observation of it coming down with alcohol consumtion(probably to do with drop in anxiety levels). I am still experimenting with types of food and their effect as this I believe is a big contributor. Will update you all as and when I do get some concrete data. Also coming out of a major panic attack to do with HH, makes you sweat free for a good amount of time there after lol.
HH has ****ed up my life in every possible way. Lot of people contemplate if its all in the mind, but when i read these posts its like you see the same identical symptoms and situations over and over again! I just cant believe that im nuts in the head and thats why this happens. The other way around might be true to a certain extent.
Hoping for an end to this tunnel some day. Keep up the faith my fellow sufferers.
All I can say is continue to do all the things you want to .. life's real short! (either ways it couldn't get worse than it already is)
Cheers.
Just thought i'd vent a little.
Well Im 25 and have had HH since 20 which was right into my 3rd year in college when things were just picking up for me socially and otherwise. I used to play the guitar and drums when I joined college and within 1st year got into the college band. We guys were picking up and getting famous. All along my HH getting worse(Like i remember , during the jams, exchanging guitars with another guy and they would spend 2 mins scrubbing it down with a towel.. i just thought i was little more prone to sweat than others). Had my share of crushes and girls being interested in me.. but as I got into 3rd year it got really bad.. i retracted into a shell and quit the band. Stopped playing guitar as it was HELL to play in front of people . I would start to sweat from my hands and eventually get so embarassed that my face would turn cherry red and ill be dripping sweat from my face. So a couple of those experiences and Ive got a phobia you can say to playing guitar(except maybe sitting alone in my room in the wee hours of the night).
I have landed a dream job after completion of my college, as an airline pilot, something most would kill for. Had a real challenge getting thru my training(I fly with gloves and am a butt of many jokes in the company) but that hasn't detered me from acheiving my goals in life. I have terrible bouts of depression because I never am able to express myself socially(be it with collegues or women) expect maybe with a few close friends, mostly male. Only a handful know of my condition, but I still walk on.
I read on these forums people talking about discussing your problem with you near and dear ones, but I for some strange reason can never get myself to do that. I feel like Im showing myself as a weakling. I dont want anyones sympathy, in fact thats the worst thing I could ask for(you know people going awwww when you have a bad sweaty day.. ughhh). So im in a catch 22 most of the times.
ETS is the only thing left(I have only tried external applicants, and will never touch drugs with a 10 foot pole). My parents have a good point against ETS.. they say anything thats coming and messing with a bunch of nerves in your body is not worth the risk. I agree, id rather be sweaty and depressed than paralysed and dependent(at least its only my problem
for now). Going for a good workout works wonders for my confidence and reduces my sweating to some extent. Other things I have noticed about my sweating is it reduces as you stay up late(basically connected to your circadian low I guess, in other words when the body processes begin to slow). Of course, the common observation of it coming down with alcohol consumtion(probably to do with drop in anxiety levels). I am still experimenting with types of food and their effect as this I believe is a big contributor. Will update you all as and when I do get some concrete data. Also coming out of a major panic attack to do with HH, makes you sweat free for a good amount of time there after lol.
HH has ****ed up my life in every possible way. Lot of people contemplate if its all in the mind, but when i read these posts its like you see the same identical symptoms and situations over and over again! I just cant believe that im nuts in the head and thats why this happens. The other way around might be true to a certain extent.
Hoping for an end to this tunnel some day. Keep up the faith my fellow sufferers.
All I can say is continue to do all the things you want to .. life's real short! (either ways it couldn't get worse than it already is)
Cheers.