My depression its killing me...

[Depressed4life]

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I want to thank everyone for taking the time to read and to reply, i really appreciated. At the moment i feel fine but you see, its like a roller coaster i can be fine one day and the next not so good. Sometimes i think positive and feel great but sometimes i have no control of my emotions and i am very stressed at the moment. I believe that if my parents were different i woudn't be so depressed because things that they did in the past and continue doing in the present day have affected me emotionally and mentally. I feel lost in this world, and i hope that one day i see the light because i really don't want to spend the rest of my life like this. I feel really old and i am only 16 years old to be 17 in July, and i feel like i am 60 or more than that. I wish i could go back and change some of the things that went down and changed a lot of the things that my parents did. Anyways, thank you guys.

 

[shield]

One of the things about depression is that it makes you think negatively and unrealistically and blocks out all the positive and you can't help but really believe this is the truth. Hang on brighter days are coming at the end of evry night there is the bright light of day hang on, stay strong have HOPE. HOPE.

 

[alwaysthinking]

Hey DFL,

It's really the parents who are to blame for most of these disorders.
You are very wise in recognizing this has happened to you.

Unfortunately there aren't any tests to pass to become a parent, but there really should be!!!

My advice to you is to look at your current situation as a stepping stone to your next adventure. High School sucks for most people, so maybe college is for you? or something else...

Also, you may want to consider moving to a big city with lots and lots of people. I wish I had done that years ago.

 

[Depressed4life]

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I already live in a big city and is not helping. My school has 4,000 students...i live in NEW YORK!!!

 

[alwaysthinking]

New York has so much to offer!

There is also so much fun to be had in NYC and so many interesting people to meet. You are still young, so you may just have to be a bit more patient and really start writing down plans for the future. I obviously don't know anything about you, so it's difficult to give advice, but I will say that you should try to work toward something you really like and try to surround yourself with people that support you.

 

[alwaysthinking]

Oh and simply being in NYC is not even close to enough and will not help on its own.

Also, the high school experience can be very traumatic, but college can be a totally different experience or at least it was for me. Don't focus on High School because it has absolutely nothing to do with real life.

 

[Depressed4life]

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Yeah you can have fun in NYC, if you go out that is. The summer here are fun only if you go out, usually in the summer here i don't go out anywhere. However, in this summer i am going to travel to the Dominican Republic but yeah this city can be amazing. Thanks so much for writing. Take care!!

 

[Ajuna24]

Seriously, i feel like i am painfully dying due to my depression. I am learning to accept the fact that there are people who were meant to be beautiful, some happy, some lucky, some rich, some outgoing, and some of us are not so lucky. I learned to accept the fact that, i will never be happy. Please don't tell me that i am young and that have years left to live life, because i don't think so. Depression can sure kill you...damn. I feel like a lost soul, like a criminal in jail, like a sinner burning in hell, like i am dead.

Yeah.. depression can do that.
I kinda understand what you mean by all of this. I'm 20 years old and I was there, and still am to be honest. I learned to accept it, so now I'm here...years past and nothing has changed really. Still going nowhere, just trying to cope and survive. I guess for every smiling person out there, there is someone crying.

It shouldn't have to be like this...

 

[Depressed4life]

Seriously, i feel like i am painfully dying due to my depression. I am learning to accept the fact that there are people who were meant to be beautiful, some happy, some lucky, some rich, some outgoing, and some of us are not so lucky. I learned to accept the fact that, i will never be happy. Please don't tell me that i am young and that have years left to live life, because i don't think so. Depression can sure kill you...damn. I feel like a lost soul, like a criminal in jail, like a sinner burning in hell, like i am dead.

Yeah.. depression can do that.
I kinda understand what you mean by all of this. I'm 20 years old and I was there, and still am to be honest. I learned to accept it, so now I'm here...years past and nothing has changed really. Still going nowhere, just trying to cope and survive. I guess for every smiling person out there, there is someone crying.

It shouldn't have to be like this...

Yeap, i am turning 17 soon...