my anxious day.

[mikestar]

bored,fed up seems like everything I do now my brain goes into overdrive and worrying.

soon as i woke up this morning i had butterflies and the shakes. I went to a motorsport event today which i used to REALLY enjoy going to a few years back now i cant enjoy it because of social anxiety. thought people where looking at me and examining everything i do,watching my hand shake when I went to collect my burger from the burger stall and the worst bit was when I was left by myself exposed to hundreds of people,didnt know what to do. It effects my enjoyment/health as Im too anxious to walk to the toilet/get a drink and too paranoid about others to enjoy the racing.

think I did way to much today i only came out of hospital few days ago

post more soon over and out cheers.

 

[Davina]

That's rotten to feel like that, Mikestar, but don't beat yourself up, 'cos, as you say, you've only just come out of hospital.

I recently went to the theatre with my daughter (these days I hardly go anywhere) so I was feeling apprehensive to say the least.
During the interval, she suggested I go to the bar and order a couple of drinks whilst she went to the ladies room. Well, I almost fainted at the thought of it! She knows I've got social anxiety but she just doesn't seem to realise just how bad it can get. I couldn't go to the bar on my own, let alone order drinks. I just waited for her outside the ladies room and then went to the bar together, but the whole incident just made me feel so inadequate and foolish. I felt as if she were the parent and I was the child.

Social anxiety is bl**dy horrible!

Sending you hugs.