Si
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I am sure that most of us have had moments of extreme anxiety and embarrassment at some stage in our lives, but what is something that has had a lasting affect on you mentally ?
Well as for me this one episode stands out clearly above the rest.I was at intermediate school and about 11-12 years old at the time.And for me this is a bloody long time ago (old bastard me).But anyway once or twice a week we would have a guest speaker at the school.This speaker would talk to us at the morning assembly in front of the whole school and all the staff (about 200-300 pupils).At the end of the talk a chosen person from any class was go to the front of the assembly to give a small thank you speech to the guest speaker in front of the whole school.The person to do the thank you speech was chosen the day before.Now as it turns out one day I was that lucky pupil.I can not begin to describe the anxiety that overcame me the night before.Public speaking or being the center of attention was my worst nightmare.Sitting in the assembly waiting for the speaker to finish was incredibly nerve racking.My heart was racing.My face felt all red and hot.I just wanted to disappear.I wanted to be Captain Kirk asking for Scotty to beam me back up to the Enterprise.Then the speech was over and the teacher asked me by name to come and thank the speaker.So here I was standing up in front of 200-300 pupils and they were all watching me.I could feel everyone of there eyes as I moved up the isle to the stage.My face was burning up.My self consciousness reached an extreme I had never experienced.Once up on stage I mumbled through my few words and then asked everyone to show their appreciation to the speaker with an applause.It was then all over.
To tell the truth I would have had less fear standing in front of a thousand wild elephants charging towards me.The damage that one moment did to me mentally has never left me.It would be one of the lowlights of my life.To many people this is probably a nothing issue.But to me to be forced into what was probably my worst mental fear was detrimental to my self confidence and social skills from then on.
Maybe someone has had a similar experience but has never been able to talk about it.And maybe you have some really funny ones too, that weren't funny at the time but you can laugh about now.I'm all ears
Well as for me this one episode stands out clearly above the rest.I was at intermediate school and about 11-12 years old at the time.And for me this is a bloody long time ago (old bastard me).But anyway once or twice a week we would have a guest speaker at the school.This speaker would talk to us at the morning assembly in front of the whole school and all the staff (about 200-300 pupils).At the end of the talk a chosen person from any class was go to the front of the assembly to give a small thank you speech to the guest speaker in front of the whole school.The person to do the thank you speech was chosen the day before.Now as it turns out one day I was that lucky pupil.I can not begin to describe the anxiety that overcame me the night before.Public speaking or being the center of attention was my worst nightmare.Sitting in the assembly waiting for the speaker to finish was incredibly nerve racking.My heart was racing.My face felt all red and hot.I just wanted to disappear.I wanted to be Captain Kirk asking for Scotty to beam me back up to the Enterprise.Then the speech was over and the teacher asked me by name to come and thank the speaker.So here I was standing up in front of 200-300 pupils and they were all watching me.I could feel everyone of there eyes as I moved up the isle to the stage.My face was burning up.My self consciousness reached an extreme I had never experienced.Once up on stage I mumbled through my few words and then asked everyone to show their appreciation to the speaker with an applause.It was then all over.
To tell the truth I would have had less fear standing in front of a thousand wild elephants charging towards me.The damage that one moment did to me mentally has never left me.It would be one of the lowlights of my life.To many people this is probably a nothing issue.But to me to be forced into what was probably my worst mental fear was detrimental to my self confidence and social skills from then on.
Maybe someone has had a similar experience but has never been able to talk about it.And maybe you have some really funny ones too, that weren't funny at the time but you can laugh about now.I'm all ears