krs2snow
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I found this old tin cannister thing that I've kept. Over the years I put various pictures and letters from pple and I had totally forgotten about most of them until tonight. I'm so depressed I could just burst. The letters are from friends, family and former love interests. All the love interests never panned out to anything. Other than the few letters I have in the tin. All of which seem to be asking me to call them and I apperantly never did because, well nothing ever happened. The friends I used to have have since faded away. The message from almost every letter I read tonight was "You're loved! You can do anything u want! " Which is very nice but what makes me so sad is why haven't I done anything if I can do anything I want? Why have I hated myself so very very much that I can't seem to allow myself to live. I'm in a very very negative place right now. I realize that I've had so many opportunities to do things and I've hid from all of them! This doesn't even explain what I feel right now. I just feel horrible. I feel embarassed. I should be doing so much more and it just never seems to happen.
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